12/12/2017

Every afternoon about this time I have a few hours to myself, it's then that I get to thinking about what I used to do and enjoyed doing.
Just couldn't seem to lose the weight that I wanted to get down to the size I would have liked to be..  So I like to think I gave it up or to put it back on hold for a while.
Anyway I get to thinking back then when I would lose body hair, use a feminine douche as an enema, lay on my bed and insert a well-lubricated  vibrating dildo into my bio pussy and I would play with my nipples through my bra and have many organism.  Then I would insert a well-lubricated tampon back into my bio pussy, spray perfume on, don panties, pantyhose, heels and get fully dressed as a woman.  Only problem I was always afraid to leave and go out shopping as the woman I felt I was.

12/11/2017

Home alone this afternoon, my body hair has grown back and is in need of thinning out.  Probably shoundn't do it but I am going to do it anyway.  Even looked at panties the other day, probably shouldn't buy them but will.
I will have to have talk with wife number two and see if something can't be worked out, yes I know should had the talk first before saying I do.

11/25/2017

With it being this time of year wife and her oldest daughter like to go out shopping, if asked I would love to go with them.  I get to thinking about what if; I probably still be a closet cross-dresser and would still wear feminine attire under drab attire.  I think the only way I would go out out in full feminine attire would have been if I moved away to a new location.
Still think about it often and have at times wish I was still single to where I could do it.  Still wonder if there would have been someone out there who wouldn't mind me being a part-time woman.

11/24/2017

Seen an old friend yesterday and realize if I was still seeing her I would be hairless, would had nail polish on my toenails, possibly a well lubricated tampon in my bio pussy, perfume sprayed on, panties on with a sanitary napkin in them more then likely pantyhose on under my drab attire.  Not that she approved of my prefer attire, but the only way I felt like being around her.  Would be for me to be under-dressed as a woman.
I would have came back home and masturbated as a woman, then would have gotten fully dressed as a woman and spent the evening as one.
This morning I would have gotten up and douched then got fully dressed as a woman and may have gone out shopping as one.

11/11/2017

I still wonder what it would be like to suck a real man off and still wonder what it would have been like to go out shopping dressed as a woman and to socialize as a woman.
I have been thinking about last year about this time of year.  What or how I would have been dressed, how I would have a hairless body from my eyebrows on down.  What color nail polish would I have on my toenails.  How long I would have a tampon inside of myself or a small vibrating dildo inside of me.  Wearing of a bra and panties with pantyhose.
I have condition myself for the last twelve years or more that the only way I can have an organism is by having a vibrating dildo in my bio pussy and or by wearing a bra and playing with my nipples through it.  Also if I am fully dressed as a woman by rubbing between my legs.  Otherwise I am out of luck when it comes to being a man and trying to have an organism.

11/07/2017

Haven't been dressed as a woman for the last nine months, plus I went and got married to an old friend.  Here lately I have been thinking about the good times I have had while dressing as a woman.  In one way I long for it and in another I'm glad I don't do it any more.  It would nice to be able to visit it once in a while.  To be able to go out once in a while dressed as a woman. I don't think the current wife would appreciate it.

2/5/2017

I just ordered myself a cock cage from Amazon I also placed an order from Lane Bryant for a one piece swim suit and a wrist bracelet.   This year I am wanting and I am going to lay out in the sun for a tan while wearing the woman's one piece swim suit.  I have been going to a woman doctor for the past year for high blood pressure.  I am wanting to start being more feminine in appearance when I see her that is why I brought the wrist bracelet, I have been letting my hair grow out, trying to lose some weight.  I have seen a pair of woman's flat shoes that I am interested in getting once I get them I will be wearing them quite often along with woman's slacks/jeans on my nylon covered legs.  I also need to get a manicure with nail extensions.
I also want to start going out completely dressed as a woman this year to shop and to socialize  It would be nice if I could find somebody to take my virgin bio pussy and to suck a real man..