09-03-2020

 I'm giving the cat back to the ex-wife on Thursday as I want to do some redecorating of my house in the coming months.

I want to repaint some rooms in more of pastel colors and let my feminine self show through in her choice of colors and flooring. She needs to come out of the closet and start doing things her way as to how she wants her home to look like. She doesn't like the way he has done things in the past, she has her own style and she wants to do somethings that reflect her taste.

As she plans on being around more than he is. She has decided she wants a bedroom she can call her own and it will be decorated as a woman's bedroom. She will have lace drapes, besides a dresser with a mirror she will also have a makeup table and a closet of her own.  The room will be totally feminine as will most of the house.

Should anyone visit they will think a woman lives here, that is how feminine she wants it.

08-17-2020

 I went camping with a female friend that doesn't approve of my desire to be feminine, so I had to stay in male mood the whole weekend.

Today is a different day and time, I sitting here with nail polish on my toenails,  panties with a sanitary napkin in them with scented body lotion on along with some perfume I sprayed on. I also have on a bra, pantyhose, full slip with low heels. I jsu got through using my breast pump. It does a good job of puffy my nipples up. 

I need to make a run to the store for feminine hygiene products and to buy a woman's electric razor. I am getting tired of using hair remover cream.

Sometime this week I will go all out on dressing completely as a woman including makeup and earrings. I want to go out in a couple of months as a woman.  I want to go to a club, shopping and maybe to a church service as a woman.. 

When I am dressed as a woman it feels like this is who I truly am, it feels right and naturaly that I should have been a woman.

08-12-2020

 I had a first cousin past this week, I probably should go to the funeral, the only problem is I don't have any males clothes for a funeral, I do have woman's clothes  that would pass.  I don't think I need to show up fully dressed as a woman although it would be exciting driving a hundred miles or so as a woman. Go to the funeral as a woman and drive back home. Of course I would be out to everyone. I'm just not ready at this time. So I will pass.  

I found out today the man across the road from just retired so that will put a damper on my going out as a woman. I do have a plan when I decide I want to go out I will just get a motel/hotel room that way I can take a nice bubble bath shave every where, then get completely dressed as a woman and go out if I find someone I can bring her/him back to my room and make passionate love. I still want to go out on Halloween and the day after or several days after. I will see how it works out. I may see about getting some female hormones to take later this year. I would like for my breast to grow then I couldn't deny I was becoming a woman or I was transgender.

07-19-2020

If I just had one older sister instead of two I think I could come out to one of them as transgender. I couldn't come out to both of them.

The one older sister that I wish I could out to is the one I used to borrowed clothes back when I was a lot younger and she has seen me dressed as a woman a time or two back in my late teens to early twenties. She has never married and far as I know she has only dated once or twice with a male but she has plenty of female friends that she hangs with.

I would have loved for her to have taken me out the last time she seen me as a woman, gone out shopping or to a club. Even now I wish there was some way I could tell her I enjoy dressing as a woman. That feeling has never left me.

I want to tell someone but am afraid to, afraid of being shamed. Guess I will continue to do it private but I am still wanting to go out shopping as a woman.

One good thing about my two sisters they both live a hundred miles from me.

Today I have on a corset, panties, bra glued some silicone breast on, woman's top and woman's shorts. I really could have had some help in tightening my corset tighter than what it is but it will do for now.

Tomorrow I will get completely dressed as a woman including makeup and stay like that all day.

07-14-2020

To keep myself in a constant mood of dressing as a woman as I am wanting  to go out dressed as a woman shopping.

I have just order a pink cock cage. Last evening my feminine self placed an order for some woman's flat shoes, she also ordered three inch heels and some glue for her silicone breast.

I was planning on going out on Halloween but my feminine self has decided that she wants to go out sooner.

She just ordered three tops to go with jeans that she has, looks like she is going to go out a lot sooner than what he had planned. Later this evening when I went to the grocery store I had on eye shadow, eyeliner, mascara and lip gloss. I did have on sun glasses and had to wear a face mask but still was thrilling knowing what I had on and will continue to use it as a continence builder. Next time I will have on a mix of woman's clothes and drab attire or just all woman's clothes since she ordered some tops to go with her jeans. She will have some flat shoes coming also, may just have to go there as a woman carrying a purse.

We will see as she is wanting to go out a lot sooner than he had planned.

07-12-2020 "B"

I had plans today but they got changed so I became a woman for the day and it felt wonderful and right. I started out using some hair remover lotion after five minutes I rinsed it off. I applied red nail polish to my toenails. Then used a feminine douche as an enema and inserted a tampon to help hold it in. Shaved my face and applied foundation, face powder, eye shadow, mascara, eyeliner and lip gloss.

Once flushed out I reinserted a well lubricated tampon back into my bio pussy, applied some scented body lotion and sprayed myself with perfume.

I then don panties with a sanitary napkin, bra, pantyhose, control brief, heels, full slip and a dress. I also put on earrings and stay dressed as a woman for most of the day. I still have my makeup on.

I will be getting dressed as a woman again tomorrow and will go grocery shopping with a combination of woman's clothes and drab attire in the next couple of days. I will be wearing makeup as well.

07-12-2020

Laying in bed last might I kept having this dream of be taken by a man. I was laying on my back and he was pegging me, he started out slow with his cock and I was playing with my breast and nipples. Telling him it felt wonderful and he should do it harder and that I wanted his seed inside of me, I wanted to feel his cum shooting inside of me, about that time I shot my own cum into my hand and licked it up.

I will be going back to being feminine and dressing completely as a woman this evening.