10-20-2020

My feminine self has written a letter to my ex-wife telling about my desire to be feminine and wanting to go out on Halloween as a woman.

From the night forward living and going out as a woman in everything that I do. From going to a nail salon to getting my ears pierced and seeing about getting hormones.

How she would like to be her girlfriend to go shopping with and maybe have her come by and give me a good pegging with a strap-on dildo.

He wasn't going to mail it but since she has taken over his life, she wants it mailed. He has to go and pick up some medicine today, so what did she do, she applied nail polish to his fingernails, is making out a shopping list for feminine hygiene products for him to get. Plus he is going there under-dressed as a woman with some makeup on. He done most of it before but the nail polish is new thing for him.

Here in the future he will going there dressed as a woman, so he might as well get used to it.

She will be going out as the woman she is, shopping, to a club even to church service. 

What she really needs to do is go shopping for some butt plugs and dildos. She loves having a vibrating dildo in her backside, the longest she had it in there was thirty minutes and she lost count on her organisms.

10-09-2020

 

It has taken me 28 plus years to admit to myself what my first wife said one night while we were having sex, she said and I quote:You want to be a woman I denied it at the time but in truth that is what I wanted. Even now that is all I can think of having my own breast to fill out my bras, softer skin and a vagina to use.

Telling family and friends that I want to be a woman is different, don't know if I could do that especially with family I think I would be disowned, same with friends. Now if I ever hit the lottery I would just move away and start over somewhere else.

10-05-2020

 Now that I have been back to dressing as a woman that is all I want to do. 

I went to the grocery store this morning under dressed as a woman, once back home got my toys out and played with them it felt so wonderful. Vibrator in and breast suction cups going at same time. Now lounging around in my bra and pantyhose playing with my nipples.

Tomorrow morning will use some hair remover lotion, and use a feminine douche as an enema, plug it with a tampon, apply my makeup, remove the tampon and sit on toilet to flush myself out. then go and us my toys again they feel so good.

Then I will finish dressing as a woman and stay like that all day.

I need to start going out as a woman, to do my grocery shopping, go to a nail salon and just out clothes shopping as a woman.

I want to get a tramp stamp on my lower back and to get my ears pierced.

Next year I am thinking of going to see someone to see if I can get on hormones to increase my breast and make my skin softer.

Something has to be done all I can think about is being a woman.

09-30-2020

 I have been spending more time dressed as a woman than cleaning that room up. I even wore woman's jeans today and still can't get in that room to do some cleaning.

I had hope to be using a new dildo today but it to big for me. I will have to get something to open my bio pussy up.

I have been using two different types of  breast pumps here lately and I have to say my breast are tender to the touch. That hasn't stop me from pumping or sucking them up.

Just sitting here enjoying being dressed completely as a woman and it feels wonderful. 

In a way I wouldn't mind being caught or seen out dressed as a woman by some women I know. I still would like to go grocery shopping in a pencil skirt, satin blouse, nylons and heels on a Thursday or Friday afternoon or evening just like a business woman getting off of work and stopping by the store..

Then again I wouldn't mind getting employment where I go to work dressed as a woman, a specialty store for women, I would be willing to work in back of store as long as I could work there as a woman.

Here soon I will get his lazy butt back to cleaning that room until then I'm here to stay for a while and will continue to be the woman of the house.

09-27-2020

 Still haven't gotten that room cleaned up filled a large garbage bag with stuff they left here. Still have more to get rid of.

In the mean time I have decide to dress as a woman, something I haven't done for a while. Mainly because I have been having a hard time finding the foundation I like. Finally found some so today I decided that I need to dress as a woman. Sitting her my lingerie with pantyhose on using a breast pump to pump my breast up. I did use a vibrating dildo earlier and it felt wonderful.

It suppose to rain on Monday and I will be dressed as a woman all day. Hopefully all week long I will be dressed as the woman I know I am.

09-03-2020

 I'm giving the cat back to the ex-wife on Thursday as I want to do some redecorating of my house in the coming months.

I want to repaint some rooms in more of pastel colors and let my feminine self show through in her choice of colors and flooring. She needs to come out of the closet and start doing things her way as to how she wants her home to look like. She doesn't like the way he has done things in the past, she has her own style and she wants to do somethings that reflect her taste.

As she plans on being around more than he is. She has decided she wants a bedroom she can call her own and it will be decorated as a woman's bedroom. She will have lace drapes, besides a dresser with a mirror she will also have a makeup table and a closet of her own.  The room will be totally feminine as will most of the house.

Should anyone visit they will think a woman lives here, that is how feminine she wants it.

08-17-2020

 I went camping with a female friend that doesn't approve of my desire to be feminine, so I had to stay in male mood the whole weekend.

Today is a different day and time, I sitting here with nail polish on my toenails,  panties with a sanitary napkin in them with scented body lotion on along with some perfume I sprayed on. I also have on a bra, pantyhose, full slip with low heels. I jsu got through using my breast pump. It does a good job of puffy my nipples up. 

I need to make a run to the store for feminine hygiene products and to buy a woman's electric razor. I am getting tired of using hair remover cream.

Sometime this week I will go all out on dressing completely as a woman including makeup and earrings. I want to go out in a couple of months as a woman.  I want to go to a club, shopping and maybe to a church service as a woman.. 

When I am dressed as a woman it feels like this is who I truly am, it feels right and naturaly that I should have been a woman.