08-17-2020

 I went camping with a female friend that doesn't approve of my desire to be feminine, so I had to stay in male mood the whole weekend.

Today is a different day and time, I sitting here with nail polish on my toenails,  panties with a sanitary napkin in them with scented body lotion on along with some perfume I sprayed on. I also have on a bra, pantyhose, full slip with low heels. I jsu got through using my breast pump. It does a good job of puffy my nipples up. 

I need to make a run to the store for feminine hygiene products and to buy a woman's electric razor. I am getting tired of using hair remover cream.

Sometime this week I will go all out on dressing completely as a woman including makeup and earrings. I want to go out in a couple of months as a woman.  I want to go to a club, shopping and maybe to a church service as a woman.. 

When I am dressed as a woman it feels like this is who I truly am, it feels right and naturaly that I should have been a woman.

08-12-2020

 I had a first cousin past this week, I probably should go to the funeral, the only problem is I don't have any males clothes for a funeral, I do have woman's clothes  that would pass.  I don't think I need to show up fully dressed as a woman although it would be exciting driving a hundred miles or so as a woman. Go to the funeral as a woman and drive back home. Of course I would be out to everyone. I'm just not ready at this time. So I will pass.  

I found out today the man across the road from just retired so that will put a damper on my going out as a woman. I do have a plan when I decide I want to go out I will just get a motel/hotel room that way I can take a nice bubble bath shave every where, then get completely dressed as a woman and go out if I find someone I can bring her/him back to my room and make passionate love. I still want to go out on Halloween and the day after or several days after. I will see how it works out. I may see about getting some female hormones to take later this year. I would like for my breast to grow then I couldn't deny I was becoming a woman or I was transgender.