Saturday, December 31, 2016


I have decided that last night was going to the last night I stay at the friends house.  The bed I have been sleeping in worse then my bed and that is saying a lot.
Plus I want to be a woman on the first day of the New Year to be able to lose my body hair that grown back to gluing on my silicone breast, to using a feminine douche as an enema and inserting a tampon, spraying myself with perfume to putting on a bra and panties to completely dressing as a woman.
Staying all day dressed as a woman.

Thursday, December 29, 2016


Turned out that the friend I thought I would be house sitting for need some help after her surgery.  So now I have been staying with her and not being able to cross-dress and it hurting something "bad".
It is looking like it will be the second week in the New Year before I can back home and stay here and become the woman of the house once again.  Sure do miss having nail polish on my toenails or having no body hair. I can't even wear none of my lingerie, I so much want to wear panties and a bra but can't.  She is the type of person DADT.  I also miss not having perfume sprayed on and using women's deodorant and wearing of makeup.+

Monday, December 19, 2016


I thought I was house sitting this week for a friend but found yesterday that isn't the case.  Plan B formed in my head yesterday that I will spend the week dressed as a woman.  Started out this morning as one was able to stay dress completely for four hours.  I would had made it longer but had to masturbate, then I was still able to keep everything on for about ten or fifteen minutes after.
I have a doctor's appointment in the morning considering my shoulder after that I am getting my vehicle serviced and have been talking myself into a manicure and some artificial nails.  Should that last part happen I want to go out shopping dressed as a woman for some woman's slacks, jeans, tops and woman's shoes.  Either way I will still be dressing as a woman after buying feminine hygiene products that I need and will start house cleaning and cooking as the woman of the house.  I wouldn't mind buying a dildo or two while I am out tomorrow.

Saturday, November 26, 2016


I am having an strong urge to get totally feminine today but really need to wait a few days before that can happen.  At least until Sunday late afternoon where I can use hair remover lotion all over my body.  Come Monday morning I will be getting under-dressed as a woman and wearing women jeans and a drab top.  I will apply some makeup, insert my silicone breasts into my bra. Wear my woman's wool coat and carry my woman's billfold in it.  I will take heels, earrings and depends on how much makeup I have on I may slip the heels on along with the earrings and walk into the Lane Bryant store to pick up my order.

Monday, November 21, 2016


I am planning on going to the grocery store under-dressed as a woman the only problem I didn't stop at under-dressing.  I am sitting here completely dressed as a woman.  Tried on one of the wigs I have but I don't like it the hair is too dark, plus it doesn't look right with my face.
May have to order some new wigs the first of the year or so.
I can still go to the store just have to remove my dress, earrings and heels.  Put on my woman's jeans a drab top and a pair of loafers that could pass for woman's flats.

Saturday, November 19, 2016


It as been long and slow time for me but I am seeing the light at the end.  I have been slowly restocking my feminine attire and accessories.
Yesterday I  went out under-dressed as a woman and it felt wonderful.  The weather has finally turned cooler and I will be able to wear more feminine undergarments under my drab clothes.  I do have a pair of woman's jeans but I need to find a top or sweater to go with it.  I have three pairs of heels and need to find some flat shoes.  Another coat would be nice also, then I can go out in all women's attire to do my grocery shopping.

Tuesday, August 23, 2016


Last evening I ordered two dresses to wear when I lose all of my body hair.  Today I ordered two wigs. 
This evening when I took a shower I used scented feminine soap, patted myself dry.  I then sprayed on some perfume, used scented deodorant, panties with a sanitary napkin in them, don a bra and put on some lounge wear.
It feels wonderful smelling like a woman while wearing panties and a bra.

Sunday, August 21, 2016


It took me until last evening to lose the pubic hair, I also wanted to use a feminine douche as a enema and insert a tampon.  I couldn't insert the tampon because in my haste back in March to clear everything out I threw out the Vaseline.
I have a appointment to see the surgeon on September 06, 2016 when I get back home all of the body hair will be history.
I will need to stop and pick up a large tub of Vaseline, foundation, loose face powder, brushes, makeup sponges, eye shadow, mascara, eyeliner, blush, nail polish for my toenails and lip gloss and/or lip stick.
Once I lose my body hair I want to get dressed and wearing makeup as a woman.  I will glue on my silicone breast and do my best to keep them on all day, if I need to somewhere I may go bra-less.  The tops I have show too much bra.

Thursday, August 11, 2016


I have been thinking the hair from my waist on down will be going down the drain.  I have been having a strong urge to use feminine hygiene products and to start wearing panties full time.  It will be a few more months before I can lose the body hair above my waist, once I do I will keep all body hair off once again.
When I can lose all body hair for good and to start dressing as a woman.  I want to go out dressed as a woman and go shopping for a vibrating dildo to pleasure myself with.  I also want to go out shopping for woman's clothing and makeup.  I will also hit a few clubs up as a woman and go to a support meeting as a woman.

Sunday, July 17, 2016


There has been times since my divorce some twenty plus years ago that I wouldn't have mind being seen dressed as a woman by my ex-wife.
Even today if possible I would like to be seen by her, to be out shopping dressed as a woman and accidentally see her or a few other women since her.
The one I dated after my divorce came final I wouldn't mind seeing that one as she was the one that used to use a dildo on herself or wanted somebody else to use one on her while licking between her legs.  I must say that she got me to thinking about using one on myself and it felt wonderful.
Then there is a third woman who I wouldn't mind seeing me dressed as a woman, she wanted the big type bouncer type of men, not the small penis of a male that I am.
Is it wrong for me to be seen dressed as a woman by these three women?  I think that they all might agree that it is only fitting that I should have been a woman to start with.
It would be so nice to see them and have them see me as a woman either on the arm of a dominate woman or a strong looking man.  To either of the man or woman to have their way with me and to let it be known that I am truly the woman in the relationship.

Monday, July 11, 2016


I am going to buy the hair remover lotion, feminine douche, tampons and sanitary napkins the next time I am in the grocery store.
I need to start becoming a woman in my mind and this will help in deciding that I am that woman.  Hopefully by end of summer I can be dressing as one again.
I got the basic bra and panties to wear and hopefully I will get the use of my left arm wear I can wear pantyhose by end of summer, shop for heels and flats in women's.  Then purchase some makeup and go out shopping for woman's attire.  To shop, try on and purchase, then shop some more.
My hair should be long enough for dye and styled at a beauty salon and might get my ears pierced and will differently get a pedicure and manicure done.
I want to start going out as a woman as the accidental I had back in February has open my eyes to things I dreamed about doing and what I need to start doing.
I need to shop for some dildos and would like to do it as a woman.
I went ahead and ordered a pair heels from Zappoo's this afternoon.

Saturday, July 9, 2016


I have come to the conclusion that I need to purchase some hair remover, feminine hygiene products and to start using them.
I really need to lose some body hair from my waist on down and I think I can use my good arm to apply some Nair hair remover all over my lower body.  Of course I would like to lose more  but at the present time.  I would also like to use a feminine douche as an enema and insert a super plus tampon to help hold it in.  Then to don a pair of panties with a sanitary napkin in them.  Then to don my shorts and tee shirt it may help me in my mind to at least be a little on the feminine side.  May have see about getting some woman's tee shirts.

Thursday, June 23, 2016


I had surgery on my shoulder on June 10 to repair three torn muscles.  Hopefully by the end of July I can start to back to being a woman.
I have body hair in places that hasn't had body hair going on 11-years now and it is driving me crazy.  I long for that hairless body, taking enemas at least twice a week sometimes more if I am playing with toys.  I also long for nail polish on my toenails, wearing a bra/all-in-one body brief, panties with a sanitary napkin in them, perfume sprayed on, silicone breast glued on, pantyhose, heels, dress, makeup, earrings and a wig on.
I will need to shop for some dildos in the near future.  I also need to get another purse and woman's billfold.
If I can start dressing as a woman again I want to start going out as one in the near future.

Friday, May 20, 2016


I now have about eight bra's of two different styles and ten pairs of panties seven of which are hipsters and three are high cut briefs.
Late next week I will place a couple of orders one for some new silicone breast and the other for pantyhose.  I will also start to restock my feminine hygiene supplies, makeup, nail polish and perfume.  I may also place an order for an all-in-body brief, then start looking at dresses on line along with woman's tops and slacks/jeans.  I will also need another woman's billfold and purse.  Then I will need to go out shopping for woman's shoes.
I think this year if my shoulder surgery is successful come Halloween I will be going out in public dressed as a woman to do my grocery shopping and to go out on the town so to speak.

Sunday, May 15, 2016


I need surgery to repair the muscles in my shoulder, that is happening on May 25.  After I have that surgery after about a week or so I am thinking I will go ahead and order some breast inserts so that when I get the OK to start using my arm again I can don a bra and my inserts along with some panties and slowly become dress as a woman again.
It has been hard on me by not being able to dress as a woman or as the sissy that I know I am.  I much prefer the feel of feminine undergarments and wearing of makeup and perfume then that of being dressed in drab attire.

Friday, May 6, 2016


I am thinking the next time I am in the grocery store I will go ahead and get some feminine douche, two different sizes of tampons and a pack of sanitary napkins.  I may also go ahead and get what makeup I need along with some nail polish to use on my toenails.  I might as well get some Nair Hair remover while I am at it.
Might as well get a package or two of pantyhose.
If I could kick myself I would do it for throwing all of those clothes out.
By fall I am hoping to start going out as a woman and would like to find a woman who wouldn't mind me being dressed as a woman.  If that is impossible to find an understanding woman then I will find a man who is interested in a feminine male and become his bitch.

Thursday, May 5, 2016


Looks like I will need surgery to repair a muscle in my arm or shoulder.
The last few days the only thing I have been thinking about is wearing some panties and a bra.  Being fully dressed as a woman and going out shopping or to a club.  I have also been thinking of being dressed as a woman and being taken by a man and becoming his bitch in heat.
I couldn't stand it any more not having any panties and bra's, so I ordered my panties from Macy's and the style of bra's that I like from Roman's.  I also ordered a black wool coat and scarf from Roman's as well.
One way or another I will be wearing panties by end of the month and hopefully a bra.  Then the real shopping can begin.

Tuesday, April 26, 2016


Looks like another two months of not dressing as a woman or more.  I go in for a MRI on Friday morning to see why I can't raise my left arm.  Then back to the doctor next week an explanation on what needs to be done.  If it is surgery to correct a torn muscle or what?
I really want to be able to wear an all-in-one body brief along with stockings, dress, heels, makeup and woman's jewelry.
I have been looking forward to losing all of my body hair and to get back into dressing as a woman.  To be able to use feminine douche, insert a tampon, sanitary napkin in my panties, pantyhose, bra with some light makeup and perfume sprayed on.  Then go shopping for a vibrating dildo and/or out shopping for woman's clothes.
Hopefully by late summer to early fall that can happen.

Wednesday, April 20, 2016


Monday afternoon while looking for some shorts, I found a package that I had forgot about from Lane Bryant.
In it I found two woman's tank tops, one blue and one black I started to throw them out but after placing an order for a bra and panty I dug them out of the trash and washed them.  They are on the clothes line drying.
Next time I am at the grocery store I will be purchasing feminine douche, tampons and sanitary napkins.
Once I find out what is wrong with my shoulder and get it repaired then I will get fully back into dressing as a woman.

Sunday, April 17, 2016


I am having a hard time coping with my injury to my shoulder, thought I could go without women's attire while it healed.
I have decided that I need at the very least a bra and panty to cope with.  So I just got through placing an order for a bra and panty and will do my best to cope, of course the other attire will come eventually along with heels, purse, billfold and breast inserts.
At least I will have something to start with.

Tuesday, April 12, 2016


Still can't move my arm the way I would like to.  It would be extremely hard to don an all-in-one body brief but I think it would feel really good at this time.  It may even fill out the cups naturally.  I sent back all of my woman's attire that I had ordered because of my arm being unable to raise it any higher then what I can.
Hopefully I can work on losing some weight and maybe by fall I can go back to being a woman part-time.

Sunday, March 27, 2016


There have been times when I wouldn't mind being seen out dressed as a woman by a few ex-female friends.  One of them being my ex-wife, I often think about being seen by her if I could find a woman who wouldn't mind or insist I dress as a woman.  To go out as two woman shopping or to take in lunch in a cozy restaurant.  If it couldn't be a woman I would be with then a man to be with him and him having his arm around me to show everybody that I am his.
For either one of these scenes to be sitting in a booth and for either the woman or the man to run their hand on my nylon covered thigh either under my dress or skirt and to whisper in my ear that when I go to the powder room to bring back my panties for them.
Of course they would have me wearing a cock cage long before we would have went out.
The other ex-female friends would be some women that I have dated right after my divorce, one knew the reason for my divorce was that I couldn't stop dressing as a woman and the other knew I had a fetish for pantyhose.  I still wouldn't mind being dressed as a woman and be out and about as one and see either of them.

Thursday, March 24, 2016


So far in the last two days I have spent $195.00 on line restocking my feminine lingerer and earrings.  I still need a couple of dresses, slacks, jeans, tops not to mention some heels and woman's flat shoes.  I also need to get a purse or two along with a woman's billfold.  Some perfume and woman's scented soap and deodorant.  I also need another makeup bag along with makeup.
All in due time.
Just got through placing an order for two tops and a pair of slacks  from Lane Bryant.
I can go to PayLess one of theses days and look for a pair of heels, flat shoes and woman's sneakers.
I will wait until my order with the bra's, panties and pantyhose show up that way I will wear them under my drab attire.
I might as well order some perfume from Victoria Secret.

Wednesday, March 23, 2016


I have been kicking myself for purging all of my feminine attire a few weeks ago.  I should have just bagged all of it up and put it somewhere.
Just got through placing an order for some new bra's, panties, a full slip and pantyhose.  I have no idea when I will be able to wear any of it but I will at least have some feminine items to wear when I think I am ready.
I will continue to shop on line but really would like to go shopping in person when the time comes that I can try on some items.
I will need to purchase silicone breast inserts again, that would be nice if I could find them locally.  Also new wig or two until my own grows back out.  Some more woman's shoes, purse and/or billfold along with woman's jewelry.
Makeup brushes, makeup, perfume, feminine hygiene products and hair remover lotion along with nail polish.

Sunday, March 20, 2016


A lot has happen since the last time I posted.  On February 28, 2016 the last thing I remember was doing some yard work outside and the next thing I woke up in the emergency room at a hospital.  Apparently I fainted and when I hit the ground I dislocated my left shoulder.  I got to come back home the next day and by the following day I purged everything and I do mean everything.  I was afraid that my two older sisters would show up one day to do some house cleaning and find my stash of feminine attire and I didn't want to have that conservation while my shoulder and arm were in a sling.
Once my shoulder and arm get some movement back, then I will do some shopping to replace my wardrobe.  Hopefully I will lose some weight in the process.

Friday, February 26, 2016


I really waned to leave here again as a woman but had some errands that needed done as my male self.  I did locate my woman's billfold and stuck it my purse so I know where it will be the next time I go out.
With some luck I will be going out as a woman  next week, I would like to go shoe shopping for some woman's flat shoes.  I also need to go to a adult book store and purchase a vibrating dildo as I want to start using it on myself again.  I need a larger one then what I got, the one I have just doesn't do anything for me anymore too slender.

Thursday, February 25, 2016


The urge was here again today and this time the daughter and grand children didn't show up this morning for the woman across the road.
Applied my makeup, sprayed perfume on and got dressed as a woman with just a pull over top with woman's jeans, heels, wig and woman's jewelry.
Loaded my purse up or tried to as I have misplaced my woman's billfold, don a woman's wool coat and walked out the door.
Got into my vehicle and left as a woman.  I went to the store to buy makeup sponges, eye shadow and feminine soap.  I came back home as a woman.
It didn't seem right as I didn't have tampon inside of myself or my all-in-one body brief.  I much prefer to wear a dress and heels but didn't want to be overdressed.

Wednesday, February 24, 2016


I had an overwhelming urge yesterday to be a woman and it felt fantastic.
Today I have that same urge sitting here in a bra with my silicone breast inserts with foundation and face powder on so far.  In a few minutes I will apply some eye shadow, eyeliner and mascara.  I will spray on some perfume, don panties with a sanitary napkin in them, then on to pantyhose, woman's jewelry, woman's top with woman's jeans. Slip on heels, load my purse up with my feminine needs, woman's coat, grab a pair of man's gym shoes and walk out the door.
I need a few things from the grocery store along with some feminine items as well.
I do need to shop in the near future for woman's flat shoes and woman's gym shoes.

Sunday, February 21, 2016


I have been having an overwhelming urge to get back into a feminine mood.  I do need to pay my bills but have been putting it off.
I have a chore later to do outside, then I will take a shower, spray some perfume on don panties and a bra and lounge wear for the evening.
In the morning will take another shower, douche and insert tampon, spray perfume on and proceed to get completely dressed as a woman.
Pay some bills on line, then watch to see if the daughter and grand children show at the people across the road.  If they don't then I will leave here dressed as a woman to run some errands and come back home.

Thursday, February 18, 2016


Got dressed as a woman this past Monday to try on a new dress that I had ordered, it felt wonderful and I like how the dress looked.
I brought it as an Easter dress but if I see another one I like I will buy it also.  Somehow or someway I want to start going out dressed as a woman this year.  I would really like to go shopping as a woman not just for clothes, shoes but also for my grocery items and feminine hygiene items as well.
To leave here completely dressed as a woman carrying her purse, shop and come back home as a woman.  If I were seen out shopping as a woman so be it.
I really need to go shopping for a bigger vibrating dildo and it would nice to do it as a woman.

Sunday, February 7, 2016


I need some fruit and a few other things from the grocery store, I am thinking of going there under-dressed as a woman with woman's jeans, woman's top and some makeup on.
Tomorrow being Monday I an planning on getting dressed as a woman and spending the day as a woman.
I still need to do some house cleaning and can do it better whenever I am dressed completely dressed as a woman.
I wouldn't mind being seen dressed as a woman by one or two of my female neighbors, I would mind being seen out and about by either one of the two female neighbors.

Wednesday, February 3, 2016


I got to thinking this morning while looking at dresses on line, that I haven't brought an Easter dress in a long time.  Not that I would wear it to any religious services but I could if I get my nerve up.
I used to buy an Easter outfit or suit when I lived in the subdivision all of the time.
I had seen a couple of dresses on line that I would like to have and I might just go ahead and order them and tell myself that either one of them will be my Easter dress for this year.
I need to start going out as a woman is what I keep telling myself but just hate going downtown to where the clubs are.
If I am to continue being a cross-dresser and keep my body hair free then I need to start going out dressed as the woman/sissy that I am.
I need to get over myself esteem and be who I am behind closed doors.
I went ahead and ordered the two dresses I seen on line, hopefully I will wear them somewhere  other then behind closed doors.

Sunday, January 31, 2016


I have got the need to dress as a woman today.  I have just gotten out of the shower where I had used hair remover lotion all over my body.  I have used a feminine douche as a enema and have a super plus tampon inside of me to help hold it in.  Once I am flushed out I am wanting to use my vibrating dildo on myself, once I get done with it I will then insert a regular flow tampon inside my rectum.  I will then spray perfume on, don panties with a sanitary napkin in them, pantyhose and an all-in-one body brief, silicone breasts, foundation, face powder, eye shadow, mascara.  Then put on a woman's top and woman's jeans.  May even go for a wig and woman's jewelry.

Monday, January 25, 2016


Yesterday when I got out of the shower I sprayed on some perfume and don panties with a sanitary napkin, bra and knees highs.  I then put on a thermal top and a short sleeve shirt, a pair of ankle socks and woman's jeans.  I stayed under-dressed as a woman all day and it felt fantastic.
Tomorrow I need to go to the grocery store for some fruit but before I go I will use hair remover lotion, douche and insert a super plus tampon to help hold it in.  Once flushed out so to speak I will re-insert a regular flow tampon back in, sprayed perfume on, panties with a sanitary napkin, pantyhose, all-in-one body brief, apply my makeup, woman's top, woman's jeans,  Then try on my woman's winter boots and if fit will wear them.  If not men's shoes might even wear the long woman's winter coat I have if I wear it I will take my woman's billfold with me.  If  not a men's coat and men's billfold.
After getting some more fruit, I will head to the makeup aisle and see about getting some eyeliner, lipstick/lip-gloss and eye shadow.  Might even look to see if the hair remover lotion is still marked down.

Thursday, January 21, 2016


I am in the right frame of mind if I had a pair or two of winter shoes or boots to leave here dressed as a woman today.
I got dressed as a woman including makeup, jewelry and wig and it feels so wonderful and right.  I have some bills to pay on line then change out of my dress, heels,  remove my wig and earrings.  The put on jeans and a top and head out to the store for grocery items plus some feminine items as well.  As I see myself being a woman again tomorrow.
It didn't take long doing bills on line but I am not ready to step out of my dress just yet, it still feels wonderful and natural to be dressed this way.
Figures my woman's winter boots arrived while I was gone, at least I will get to try them on tomorrow when I am dressed as a woman again.

Monday, January 18, 2016


I went done it I used the hair remover lotion I brought the other day, probably didn't leave it on long enough as it looks like I will doing it again tomorrow.  I also need to put some on my back.  I need to buy some more sanitary napkins the ones I got has wings and I don't like those kind.  I have also use a feminine douche and inserted a tampon and it feels wonderful.  I am now dressed as a woman the only things I really need if I was going out somewhere would be my makeup, wig and woman's jewelry everything I have on is woman's attire including the heels I have on.  It all feels so wonderful and right to be dressed this way.

Sunday, January 17, 2016


Today being Sunday I have been wanting to use the hair remover lotion and be dressed as a woman.  I knew if I done that the chores I need to do outside this coming week wouldn't get done.  I need to get my chores done outside this coming week then I can use the remover lotion and be dressed as a woman all day long and all week long.

Saturday, January 16, 2016


I was on line the other day and ordered a top and pair of jeans from Lane Bryant they came today.  I also ordered a bottle of perfume from Victoria's Secret and it came today.
I still need some sanitary napkins and few feminine items from the store along with some grocery items for breakfast in the morning.
I will be going grocery shopping in the next few hours and hopefully be getting my feminine items as well.
I did go to the store while being under-dressed as a woman with a woman's top and woman's jeans on but had to wear men's shoes and men's winter coat. Beside getting the needed items for breakfast I also got sanitary napkins, two boxes of feminine douche, foundation and four bottles of hair remover lotion that has been discontinue.  It was marked down and I will be going back there for more if they still have it two bottles for the price of one regular kind.

Saturday, January 9, 2016


I need some more things from the store, had a pair of knee highs on but it wasn't helping with my urge to be feminine.
Took a shower then sprayed perfume on don panties with a sanitary napkin in them, black pantyhose and an all-in-one body brief.  It feels so wonderful and right to have those undergarments on.  I still need some makeup and feminine hygiene supplies.  I also need two bottles of hair remover lotion.  Later this evening I need to order some more perfume.

Wednesday, January 6, 2016


Need some groceries and am thinking of going there under-dressed as a woman, of course I would be buying some feminine supplies as well.  It seems that is the only time I can buy my supplies is when I am under-dressed as a woman.
If it was a bit warmer I could wear my light weight woman's coat but with it being cold out out I would have to wear a heavy winter coat and by doing so I could wear my breast inserts also.  I would also have on some makeup and perfume.

Monday, January 4, 2016


I have lost about 10-pounds so far I have changed my eating habits.  Yesterday while I was taking a shower I had an overwhelming desire to masturbate, which I did thinking about being dressed as a woman and being taken missionary style.  Being able to wrap my nylon covered legs with heels on around the person that was reaming me and shooting cum into me, while he was in me he was also playing with my nipples and breast.
In my mind it felt so nice and wonderful.
Of courses that has got me to thinking about losing my body hair, using a feminine douche and getting dressed as a woman.  Which may happen anyway.