08-12-2020

 I had a first cousin past this week, I probably should go to the funeral, the only problem is I don't have any males clothes for a funeral, I do have woman's clothes  that would pass.  I don't think I need to show up fully dressed as a woman although it would be exciting driving a hundred miles or so as a woman. Go to the funeral as a woman and drive back home. Of course I would be out to everyone. I'm just not ready at this time. So I will pass.  

I found out today the man across the road from just retired so that will put a damper on my going out as a woman. I do have a plan when I decide I want to go out I will just get a motel/hotel room that way I can take a nice bubble bath shave every where, then get completely dressed as a woman and go out if I find someone I can bring her/him back to my room and make passionate love. I still want to go out on Halloween and the day after or several days after. I will see how it works out. I may see about getting some female hormones to take later this year. I would like for my breast to grow then I couldn't deny I was becoming a woman or I was transgender.