01-25-2018

In the next few months if I can find the money, I am going to get a post office box and place an order for some bras and panties.
I also want to remove some body hair before summer gets here mainly chest, pubic area and under arms.
May start using feminine douche again as an enema and using a slender vibrating dildo on myself again.  I will have to get the same perfume the wife and step-daughter uses.

01/23/2018

Got to thinking about what I was willing to do three years ago, I was communicating with another cross-dresser on a an adult site.  I was willing to give my life as a heterosexual male to become this cross-dresser's lover and be a full time cross-dresser myself.
Either this certain person was playing me or had seconds thoughts about it because a week or so later I got the brush off.  I was more than willing to pack my things and move in with this person to become his/her toy.  To give up my life and other hobbies to live and be somebody's love toy.
I would probably still be dressing if it wasn't for me passing out falling and dislocating my shoulder back in 2016.  I went through two surgeries to repair torn liniments and still don't have full use of my left arm and shoulder.
About all I can think about the good times I had cross-dressing and masturbate to that.

01-20-2018

I haven't been able to to do my usual thing this week due to snow days for the kids, just as soon as I can do it I am going to lick my cum out of my hand.
I am also thinking of shaving my body hair off or at least thinning it out, going to try and let my hair grow out more.
Still want to invest in some feminine lingerie and feminine hygiene necessaries.
I may start using feminine soap and feminine shampoo products.
The only thing I have to lose at this time would be my pride and self respect if found out.  On the other side I would be free to live and dress the way I would want.

01/11/2018

Here in a bit will starting my afternoon ritual, this time I need to drink it down or lick it out of my hand.  I need to taste my cum and savor it, it has been a while.
Still thinking about the post office box and some women's lingerie,  I know for a fact it won't stop at lingerie, it will move on toward woman's tops, jeans and/or slacks, skirts and dresses, shoes and purses, makeup and jewelry and on to a hairless body, nail polish on toenails and douching and inserting either tampon or a vibrating dildo into my bio pussy.
It all would be better if the wife and step-daughter came up with the idea.   Then they could take me out shopping or to the beauty or nail salon with them and treat me as a woman 24/7/365.

01/02/2018

For some reason got to thinking about the first woman I met after my divorce twenty-five plus years ago.
Often wonder what would have happened if I kept the friendship up, as I had told her why I was divorce.  She didn't approve of what I had like to do but was willing to be friends.  At the time I wanted more than just friends, had to prove that I was a male with needs.  Now looking back should have fess up to myself and admit what I was.  My life might have been different then what it is now.  Might be living as a woman now or a cross-dressing male.  Either way I would be dressed as a woman 24/7/365 a year and would be out to everyone that I knew at the time.

01/02/2018

I have decided that today I will measure myself to check my band size and cup size or desire cup size.  I will also take a measurement to determine my panty size.
I may get the excersize equipment out of the garage and put it down in the basement.
I have read a couple articles on how to increase my breast size naturally, may give it a try.  Worst can happen they actually grow in size.