03-28-2020

As I was looking at some picture and captions on Pinterest, got me to think about the time either in my late teens or early twenties.
My two older sisters had moved out and I was still living at home.  Parents went on an extended vacation.  Work was slow so I called in and took a couple days off.  Unknown to me my older sister had called where I worked at to see how I was doing.
She showed up at our parents house that evening door was locked so she knoocked, I had looked out through the garage to see who it was as I was completely dressed as a woman.  By the time I got to the door she was getting into her vehicle.  She said she had somewhere to go, so she left and I stayed dressed as a woman.
She came back by about half hour later, I had unlock the door when I seen her pulling into the driveway.  She came in and asked if I wanted to talk.  I did but when I said can we have a woman to woman talk, her reply was we can never have a woman to woman talk. My response was a woman to whatever then.  This was back in the mid 1970's.
I wish she would have taken me out somewhere, maybe shopping or to a club.
She probably be upset if she knew I still do it and enjoy doing it.

03/19/2020

I tried on some dresses that came yesterday found two I like and two that are getting sent back..
I have glued my silicone breast on so they aren't coming off anytime soon.
I have a small vibrator something a natural woman would use to pleasure herself.  I turned in on and stuck it between that short thing above my ball sack and folded it down.  Pulled up my panties with a sanitary napkin in them then pulled up my pantyhose and put on a control brief.  I am going to let it vibrate until the batteries wear down.
I may go out and mail my bills.

03-18-2020

Divorce is final, only problem now is everywhere is closed for who knows how long.  Guess I will have to dig some exercise equipment out of the garage and put it on the back porch for now.  Once the back bedroom is cleared out I will put it in there,  I will have to get some woman's exercise attire to work out in and some exercises to do as a woman.  I really to drop a few pounds and dress sizes.

03-13-2020

Seems like a good time to practice with makeup and try out some new looks with makeup.  Since everything and every place seems to be shutting down.
A good time to coordinate makeup with new outfits for different looks.

03-12-2020

I got to looking on a web-site at some dresses that were on sale and ordered three or four of them along with some earrings.
I still would like to get a sewing machine as I would like a few satin blouses that don't come in plus sizes.
I think I am going to join a gym tomorrow as I need to do something about my weight, I could or need to lose some weight.  I know I would feel better about myself.  Dropping down in a few dress sizes wouldn't hurt either.
I got a burr hair cut last month so when my hair grows back it will be all even and I can style it anyway I want.  I hate having a male hair cut and can only style it one way.
Hopefully by end of summer I will be able to go to a beauty salon for color and  a fashionable cut/styled.  I also want to get a manicure and start going out as the woman I feel I am.

02-22-2020

I believe I am going to buy myself a sewing machine and start sewing my own blouses, skirts, slacks and dresses. 
There just isn't anything worth looking at for plus size  cross-dressers.
At the very lest I know can get the patters I like and go shopping for the fabric.  I was taught to sew back in my teens on a sewing machine and have stiched button back on since then.
Just need to get butt in gear and get this house cleaned out.  Then go out and buy a sewing machine and a du form to fit my body and start sewing.

0-20-2020

I went back and read some of my older posts where I was going out as a woman.  Where has the time gone?  I was more confidant back then in going out dressed as a woman.  Now I have to get that confidant back and start living my life the way I feel it is.  I enjoy dressing as a woman, wearing makeup, perfume and woman's jewelry.  I never gave it a second thought about who seen me back then.  A couple of years of not doing it has it's set back but I'm sure I can get it back in time and enjoy the woman that is inside of me.  She needs to come out and shine and be proud of who she is.