07-19-2020

If I just had one older sister instead of two I think I could come out to one of them as transgender. I couldn't come out to both of them.

The one older sister that I wish I could out to is the one I used to borrowed clothes back when I was a lot younger and she has seen me dressed as a woman a time or two back in my late teens to early twenties. She has never married and far as I know she has only dated once or twice with a male but she has plenty of female friends that she hangs with.

I would have loved for her to have taken me out the last time she seen me as a woman, gone out shopping or to a club. Even now I wish there was some way I could tell her I enjoy dressing as a woman. That feeling has never left me.

I want to tell someone but am afraid to, afraid of being shamed. Guess I will continue to do it private but I am still wanting to go out shopping as a woman.

One good thing about my two sisters they both live a hundred miles from me.

Today I have on a corset, panties, bra glued some silicone breast on, woman's top and woman's shorts. I really could have had some help in tightening my corset tighter than what it is but it will do for now.

Tomorrow I will get completely dressed as a woman including makeup and stay like that all day.

07-14-2020

To keep myself in a constant mood of dressing as a woman as I am wanting  to go out dressed as a woman shopping.

I have just order a pink cock cage. Last evening my feminine self placed an order for some woman's flat shoes, she also ordered three inch heels and some glue for her silicone breast.

I was planning on going out on Halloween but my feminine self has decided that she wants to go out sooner.

She just ordered three tops to go with jeans that she has, looks like she is going to go out a lot sooner than what he had planned. Later this evening when I went to the grocery store I had on eye shadow, eyeliner, mascara and lip gloss. I did have on sun glasses and had to wear a face mask but still was thrilling knowing what I had on and will continue to use it as a continence builder. Next time I will have on a mix of woman's clothes and drab attire or just all woman's clothes since she ordered some tops to go with her jeans. She will have some flat shoes coming also, may just have to go there as a woman carrying a purse.

We will see as she is wanting to go out a lot sooner than he had planned.

07-12-2020 "B"

I had plans today but they got changed so I became a woman for the day and it felt wonderful and right. I started out using some hair remover lotion after five minutes I rinsed it off. I applied red nail polish to my toenails. Then used a feminine douche as an enema and inserted a tampon to help hold it in. Shaved my face and applied foundation, face powder, eye shadow, mascara, eyeliner and lip gloss.

Once flushed out I reinserted a well lubricated tampon back into my bio pussy, applied some scented body lotion and sprayed myself with perfume.

I then don panties with a sanitary napkin, bra, pantyhose, control brief, heels, full slip and a dress. I also put on earrings and stay dressed as a woman for most of the day. I still have my makeup on.

I will be getting dressed as a woman again tomorrow and will go grocery shopping with a combination of woman's clothes and drab attire in the next couple of days. I will be wearing makeup as well.

07-12-2020

Laying in bed last might I kept having this dream of be taken by a man. I was laying on my back and he was pegging me, he started out slow with his cock and I was playing with my breast and nipples. Telling him it felt wonderful and he should do it harder and that I wanted his seed inside of me, I wanted to feel his cum shooting inside of me, about that time I shot my own cum into my hand and licked it up.

I will be going back to being feminine and dressing completely as a woman this evening.