1-25-2019

Continue from the previous day;
They found a skirt that they wanted me to try on with a top to go with it.  Next we went to a shoe store where they found some  heels for me.  Told them I was concern about my short hair next was a wig shop where we found one on sale. Next we stopped at an adult store, the wife found a couple of dildos that she wanted to use on me, without my knowledge she brought them.  That evening we both took a shower and while in bed she proceeded to use a strap-on dildo on me and I loved it.  It is now a way of life for us.
Every weekend I am to dressed as a woman and we have started going out to clubs as three women only two of us act like lesbians while in the club.
They tell me when summer comes around I will be in a woman's swim suit.
After a night of my wife making love to me in a woman's sleeping grown, caressing me in places she never did before.  Kissing, sucking and nibbling on my breast plus pinching my nipples.  We got up the next morning after drinking some coffee and discussing what was going to happen that day.  My step-daughter took a shower first, followed by my wife and I was last to take a shower, once out I patted myself dry and proceeded to put the clothes I had on yesterday.  I also applied my makeup.  The wife gave me some perfume to spray on.
They decided that we were going to an outlet mall to shop as I needed more bras and panties. I also got more pantyhose.  swimsuit and will expected to wear it out on a public beach, hopefully by then my own hair will be long enough.

1-24-2019

Here lately I have been dreaming of my step-daughter and her mother coming home from shopping where they give me a couple of bottles of hair remover and tell me to use it.  Once hair is gone they tell me to use some baby oil to smooth my body.  The next day they take me out to a nail salon where they talk me into having a manicure done. I soon relax and have eyes closed, they have talked with the woman doing the manicure to add nail extensions and to put a mauve color on my nails.  They tell me not to get over excited as it is a holiday weekend.  We then head to a mall in another town where I have my ears pierced, then they take into a department store and have me sized for a proper fitting bra and panties.  I also have to get a sleeping grown and a robe.  They also had me get some pantyhose, we then head to the woman's section where I am to get a pair of jeans and a top to go with it.  Once items are paid for they have me change into the things I have brought.  We then head to the shoe store where I am to buy a pair or two of woman's shoes, then off.   We then head off to another store to buy a winter coat, scarf and gloves along with a purse.  Lastly we make our way to a cosmetic store where I have a makeup artist work her magic on my face and buy the needed cosmetics.

12/11/2018

I keep having this dream of being completely dressed as a woman working at the kitchen counter when a man comes up behind behind me and starts to caressing my breasts and kissing the back of my neck.  He then whispers in my ear  and tells me what he wants to do to me. Once my nipples gets hard I lean back into him and he raises my skirt or dress as I bend over the counter, he then pulls down my pantyhose and panties.  Lubes up my love hole and sticks his member into me and gives me the screwing I deserve.  I feel his cum inside of me, once he goes limp he then pulls out of me as I get some paper towels to put in my panties to keep his cum from leaking all over me.  I then pull up my panties and pantyhose and finish what I was doing.  That evening I take a shower or bath before going to bed as he takes one also and we continue our love making in the bedroom where I start with sucking and licking on his member then he takes me missionary style and fills me up again.  From then on I only wear open bottom all in ones with stockings attached to a garter strap.  Along with dresses and or skirts.

12/10/2018

Once again house to myself, wife out shopping and oldest step-daughter working.
Got to thinking this morning when I pleasure myself I don't shoot a stream of cum it is more like a drip or two.  The more I think about it the more I realize I am a sissy who can't admit to himself what he really is.
I should end this marriage and become the sissy who he is meant to be.  But that is also hard to do, to admit failure.

12/9/2018

Have the house to myself, two young twin step-daughters are with their dad.  My wife and oldest step-daughter are out shopping for the day.
I have laundry to do but before I do it , I believe I will lose some body hair I would love to use chemical remover but the odor lingoes around too long.  I will have to shave it then apply some baby lotion on.
First of year I am going to do my best to get some panties, bras and pantyhose to wear under my drab attire.

11/302018

I still think about being a woman or dressing as one, I would be in heaven if my oldest step-daughter and her mother would apply nail polish to my toenails, take me to a beauty salon to have my hair styled and perm in a woman's style.  To be taken to a nail salon and have a manicure done, then out shopping for feminine attire.
Some would say I need to talk to my wife about this, it is one of those relationships where don't say nothing or else the whole world as I know it will come crashing down.  I might live but is it really worth it?

11/20/2018

I have been getting the silent treatment for the last week, I believe by first of year if not sooner I may be divorced once again.  This time it won't be for my cross dressing it will be because we just don't get along, she likes spending way to much money that she doesn't have and thinks I should buy her a new vehicle that I can't afford.  Plus she has twins eleven year old girls that don't do no chores and if you ask them do something all hell breaks lose.
I have made my mind up when I do get  divorce I will live most of my time as a woman.  I will keep a couple of pairs of work clothes, in case I get a call to go back to work in the spring.  Otherwise everything will be women's attire that will be in my dresser and closet.  I am planning on having more women's attire,shoes boots and coats then I ever had before. From the time I go to bed at night wearing a sleeping grown to when I get up in the morning donning a bra and dressing as a woman.  I will start going out shopping as a woman and socializing as a woman.