05-27-2021

I keep thinking if I didn't live in the country with animals to take care, I would be living as a female right now.

I often wonder if I still lived in a subdivision how I would be female most of my time if not all of my time. The same way if I lived in an apartment I would be living as a woman. every moment of the day I would be a female or at least living as one. Doing my grocery shopping or just out window shopping as a woman. I would have seen about taking hormones or getting breast argumentation done to increased my breast size. I would be out excising, sunbathing, taking walks in the park all as a woman.

I think most of the people that transition to a woman have the right mind set, there are a few that can't get in the right mind set that have trouble with transitioning  to a woman.

05-24-2021

 I have been letting my fingernails grow out and I have been shaping them at least  once a week. Later this year or when I can afford a wig I will apply nail polish to them when I am dressed as a woman. I do want to start going for drives again when I am dressed as a woman like I used to many years ago. This time I may stop at the mall and go shopping as a woman. If I can make that happen then I will start going out and socializing as a woman.

05-19-2021

 As much as I want to live full time as a woman at this point and time I can't. I live in a rural area and have animals outside that I need to take car of. I understand some women do it but not this woman. I will need to sell everything that I have gotten as a male. Move into an apartment somewhere and be a woman full time.

To be able to go about my life as a woman doing everything and going everywhere as a woman.

I will need to get a smaller vehicle than what I drive now, I may just save up and buy a second vehicle to drive this fall through spring. I should be able to go out in the evenings and on the weekends as a woman. May even be able to travel for at least overnight somewhere.

Until then at once a week if not more I will spend my day completely dressed as a woman including makeup and perfume. I will start lining out in the sun in my woman's swimsuit.

05-18-2021

 This morning something came over me to where I felt the need to get completely dressed as a woman and to stay this way. Not only for the morning/day but to be like this from here on out.

That I need to be a woman from this day forward. That I need to purge all of the male clothes in this house and to go shopping as a woman clothes to increase my wardrobe.

I also need to find some makeup that I like and will probably go to a wig store and buy one until my own hair grows back out. When it does I want to go to a beauty salon for colored and styled. That is when I will get my ears pierced.

I will need to find somewhere to get a body wax or start having it removed by electrologist.

I need to start going out as a woman..

05-11-2021

 Finally got my hair remover lotion and sanitary napkins, I will be using the hair remover lotion later today. I will be dressing completely either later today or tomorrow for sure.

I have some new makeup I need to experiment with to get the correct look I want or need.

Once my hair grows out I want to get styled and colored, I also want to get my ears pierced at least once in each ear.. I getting tired of wearing clip earrings. I think with my ears pierced it will easier to go out dressed as a woman along with my hair styled and colored.

Time will tell.

05-09-2021

 I could go to the grocery store and get a few items, mainly feminine items. I need some hair remover lotion, razors, sanitary napkins and bubble bath soap. I would like to start taking baths again and shaving my legs while taking a bath or soaking in hot scented water,

The only problem I have a trailer hooked to my vehicle. It wouldn't be that much trouble to unhook it, if it is done before it starts raining.

It would make the day go by easier, dressing as a woman, that way later in the week I go out somewhere as a woman (dreaming again). At least under-dressed as a woman with some makeup and perfume on.

05-05-2021

 The woman came late last evening to give me the money owed. This morning it has cooled down and really hard to get back into feminine mode. I need to move an excising machine into another room where I can dress as a woman while using it. My fingernails are growing out, I need to shape them and I will be able to put nail polish on them. I have clear nail polish I may put on them but would rather apply the same color as my toenails. It would be nice to have the same color on my lips as well.

Hopefully by October my hair will be long enough to get it styled in a feminine style and I can go out as a woman.

I am still wanting to go to a Adam & Eve store dressed as a woman and purchase a few items. Time will tell if it happens.

05-04-2021

 I would love to be in my feminine mode right now, there is a woman that is suppose to come by and pay me some money that is owed. The only problem with this certain woman is not a fan of feminine males. So I have to stay in drab mode until she shows up.

Then I can get into full feminine mode, I have some new makeup I want to try out.

05-03-2021

 I was having second thoughts about getting into my feminine mode today. That was until I went onto pinterest and seen a couple of photos and made my nipples hard. That is the way I know I am a sissy at heart when my nipples get hard and start tingling. Being born a male for most that thing between their legs would get hard, not this male his nipples get hard.

It will take a little longer in the shower as I need to shave my body, then douche and insert a tampon. Before donning lingerie I will apply scented body lotion then spray myself with perfume, don panties with a sanitary napkin, bra, pantyhose, woman's jeans, drab shirt and loafers. I am almost tempted to wear woman's slacks, a woman's blouse and woman's shoes. Of course I would then have to carry a purse and everyone that would see me would know I am a sissy.

Maybe when it turns cooler I will wear that outfit out.