01/11/2018

Here in a bit will starting my afternoon ritual, this time I need to drink it down or lick it out of my hand.  I need to taste my cum and savor it, it has been a while.
Still thinking about the post office box and some women's lingerie,  I know for a fact it won't stop at lingerie, it will move on toward woman's tops, jeans and/or slacks, skirts and dresses, shoes and purses, makeup and jewelry and on to a hairless body, nail polish on toenails and douching and inserting either tampon or a vibrating dildo into my bio pussy.
It all would be better if the wife and step-daughter came up with the idea.   Then they could take me out shopping or to the beauty or nail salon with them and treat me as a woman 24/7/365.

01/02/2018

For some reason got to thinking about the first woman I met after my divorce twenty-five plus years ago.
Often wonder what would have happened if I kept the friendship up, as I had told her why I was divorce.  She didn't approve of what I had like to do but was willing to be friends.  At the time I wanted more than just friends, had to prove that I was a male with needs.  Now looking back should have fess up to myself and admit what I was.  My life might have been different then what it is now.  Might be living as a woman now or a cross-dressing male.  Either way I would be dressed as a woman 24/7/365 a year and would be out to everyone that I knew at the time.

01/02/2018

I have decided that today I will measure myself to check my band size and cup size or desire cup size.  I will also take a measurement to determine my panty size.
I may get the excersize equipment out of the garage and put it down in the basement.
I have read a couple articles on how to increase my breast size naturally, may give it a try.  Worst can happen they actually grow in size.

12/29/2017

Is it wrong for a cross-dresser to dressed as a woman and only be interested in woman?  I think not but so many women think that isn't true.  I have to admit there were times when I thought about a man taking my virgin hole but I think I could be with the right woman that would use a strap on dildo on me and I would be just fine with it.  Although the thought of having someone shooting their cum inside of me turns me on and having to put something inside of me to plug it up to keep from leaking cum.  To have that walk of shame.
Have been looking at bra's on line, may have to get a post office box so that I can have a place to send my purchases to.  As the size I need can only be brought on line.
Here in a bit I will be able to masturbate to wearing a bra, panties and using a vibrating dildo on myself.  When or if I get a post office box I will also order pantyhose.
I know I shouldn't be thinking of doing it as it will leave to further purchases and will eventually be found out.  Just wish it could be her in the wife that would come up with idea of feminizing me.  Oh well the only thing that would happen is everybody I know finding out that I cross-dress as a woman.

12/26/2017

Here it is a day after Christmas and still can't stop thinking of the dream I had a couple of weeks ago.  I would be a lot happier if the wife could understand how much hornier I would be if I could wear panties, a bra and be hairless.  If I could be dressed as a woman around her and her oldest daughter to be able to go with them to have our nails done and to go out shopping as three women.  Just to be able to be another woman in the household.  All of us using makeup and spraying perfume on with all traces of man gone out of the house.  Three purses laying around, with mother and I having a lesbian relationship.Taking turns using a strap on dildo on each other  To go out shopping for dildos.
It is almost midnight and I am thinking next month I am going to buy myself some panties to wear and maybe a bra when the women of the house aren't home Might as well buy some pantyhose as well.  I might see about a dildo or two to use on myself when they aren't home also.

12/18/2017

I had a crazy dream this morning, that a man either my wife brought home or the step daughter did.  After having sex with them he came to me and told me I needed to have lipstick on my lips which they being my wife and step daughter were more then happy to applied it on my lips.  Next I was to clean his cock off with my wife on one nipple and step daughter on the other.  Once he was clean off, he said the next time he comes by that I have better be dressed as a woman as to which the two women said I would be.  He did come back a few days later and I was dressed as a woman, after servicing the two females he said it was now my turn .  He wanted to bend me over a chair but I asked if he could take me missionary style instead.  He said he now has three women in his stable and I am to stay dressed as a woman 24/7/365 a year no matter what.  It was at that time I woke up.

12/14/2017

Getting to be that time of day again, here in about thirty minutes I will be back on my bed thinking about that dildo inside of me and getting fully dressed as a woman the way I used to do.  To lunge around dressed as a woman doing my house hold chores as a woman, going to the grocery store under-dressed as a woman.  Although I kept telling myself that one day I was going there completely dressed as a woman but never did.  Often thought of going to the doctor under-dressed as a woman also, as the doctor or nurse practitioner would always check my ankles for swelling.  Thinking of the look on her face if she felt the nylons I would  have on, or the bra I would have on under a top.  Never did but often think about it.