It has turned into a daily thing now taking a shower using a feminine douche and using my vibrators. Today while I was using my vibrator I got back to thinking when I was in my teens I used to sit or rub my love hole and a posted bed frame that my sister's slept in. Apparently I knew way back that I was a sissy and wanted something in my love hole.
Only after getting a divorce did I actually to start to put something in back there from vegetable's to a saw off broom handle. This went on for a while, until I started telling myself that I was a male and they didn't do those things. I tried dating and the first woman I dated had a vibrating dildo that she used on herself, needless to say I was hooked.
Went from that one to another and it didn't last women that is, after the second strike out went to Wal-Mart and brought hair remover, panties, sanitary needs. Went back to the apartment found a number and catalog for New-Port News woman's catalog and started shopping.. I would go in and out of wanting to be a sissy or even dressing as a woman. I finally found a woman but she wasn't into the kink that I like and it lasted a good seven years and once again I found myself back into woman's attire and sanitary hygiene.
I am still friends with the last woman but it is a don't ask don't tell relationship without any strings. I still dress as a woman and keep my body hair-free.