12-15-2021

 I have been dressing as a woman most days and wearing makeup as well. I do wear a bra along with panties under my drab attire. What drab attire I have left.

I am suppose to go shopping with the ex-wife this Saturday, I will have panties on for sure might also have pantyhose or tights on also depending on the weather. I asked her what her three girls wanted for Christmas as I have always gave the oldest one something every year for the last twenty years plus. I thought it was time to do something for the twin that just became teenagers. I would love to go shopping with her completely dressed as a woman but will have to settle with some lingerie under drab attire unless I wear woman's jeans.

Once Sunday comes around I will apply nail polish to my fingernails and maybe go out in woman's casual clothes and do some shopping as a woman.

Come first of the year I do want to get a manicure, ears pierced and get my hair colored and a feminine style done to it.

I do want to start going out as a woman and may see medical professionals about becoming a woman.

A woman can dream can't she.

11-09-2021

 Today I am completely dressed as a woman and it so much better after applying nail polish to my toenails and using a douche as an enema, then inserting a tampon into my boi pussy.

I even used my breast suctions cups before donning my bra. I have some laundry to get caught up on, then I will head out, under-dressed and smelling like a woman to do some shopping. 

I do have some light makeup on and I not planning on removing it.

I am completely under-dressed as a woman including my bra and I went shopping to restock my makeup with the makeup still on.

It felt wonderful and right. I had planned this morning to go out and get a wig. I was going to apply nail polish to my fingernails and be under-dressed as a woman. About the time I was getting ready to apply the nail polish my ex-wife called and needs someone to pick up her teenagers this evening. It put me out of the mood. I did try on different outfits and settle on gray women's slacks and a pull over top, which hopefully in a week or so I will wear that to get a wig locally. I will have to carry my purse and have my makeup on.

 Today is the longest I have stayed dressed as a woman since before 2016.

I am ready to start going out dressed as a woman.

11-03-2021

 It's has been going on three weeks since the last time I got dressed as a woman. I didn't do the completely thing that I normally do but here I am and it feels wonderful. I don't have nail polish on my toenails and I didn't douche or insert a tampon other than those things I am dressed as a woman with makeup and perfume on. 

Hopefully between now and the end of the year I will be going out as a woman on a regular basis. This feels to good just to do it behind closed doors.

10-15-2021

 Sad to say the wig didn't fit, it's what I get for trying something cheap. I will go back to my favorite wig shop and try again.

May still go out a lot of women have short hair., besides it means I just get read sooner, there won't be no doubt that I am a sissy out shopping. 

I still have a  few thing to mail and will have more once I make my bills out.

10-14-2021

 Finally got my chores and errands caught up. I decided today was the day to get back into my feminine mood. I a[[lied nail polish to my toenails, trimmed and shaved my eyebrows, applied hair remover lotion all over my body waited five minutes and rinsed it off. I then used a feminine douche as an enema and inserted a tampon to help hold it in. I applied scented body lotion to my breast.

Here in a bit I will release the fluid inside of me and will reinsert a well-lubricated tampon back inside my bio pussy , then don panties with a sanitary napkin, bra, pantyhose or tights, woman's slacks or woman's jeans a woman's top with either heels or flats. Apply my makeup, put my clip earrings on, spray perfume on and try on my wig. Should it fit and I like how it looks I will leave here and go to the bank and post office as I have something to mail. I almost forgot I will apply nail polish to my fingernails.

10-11-2021

 I haven't applied nail polish to my toenails or removed what body that grew back. I have a doctor's appointment on Tuesday morning after which I will be getting into a feminine mood.

I need to be in all feminine attire with nail polish on my fingernails as well as my toenails. Once my makeup is on I will try on the wig and if I like how it looks out the door I will go. There are some things I need and what better way than to shop as a woman.

10-04-2021

 I received two wigs in the mail this past Friday, I won't be able to try them on until next week. I have to be in drab attire all this week as I had agreed to go camping with ex-wife and her three girls.

Come Sunday October 10, 2021 nail polish will go back on toenails, body hair will be removed and nail polish on fingernails will be applied.

Following week I will be a woman and she will try on her wigs and hopefully start going out.

09-30-2021

 I didn't intend on dressing as a woman today but here she is. She hasn't done her makeup or put on her clip earrings but she is dressed and it feels wonderful and right.

She has decided when he goes to the store to get her a package of panty-liners to go with her sanitary napkins.

Hopefully by the middle of October she will get a wig so she can start going out during the day. 

Her finger nails are growing out and she will have to start filing them into shape. Then she can apply nail polish to them.

09-26-2021

 I done something last evening that I haven't done in about ten years and it felt great and so natural. I went out to mail a couple of bills dressed as a woman, I walked into a post office carrying my purse and hearing my heels on that tiled floor.

 It felt great and I know I will be doing it again, next time in the daylight hours.

I will be going out dressed as a woman, that I know for sure.

03-25-2021

 I was two days late ti getting into a female mode. Once into it I can't stop trying on different outfits. I even brought more clothes from the basement and there is a lot more to bring up.

I will need to get some nice hangers to hang some things up.

I need to go out this evening and mail a bill, will probable do it as a woman or at the very least as a feminine male. If I had a wig I know I would do it as a woman. Either way I will apply my makeup, top and skirt, heels and load my new purse up and head out to mail it.

I still have my bra on and panties. Here in a bit I will changing my tampon. I am switching my ID's and other stuff from my male billfold to a woman's billfold. If my fingernails were longer they would have nail polish on them. I might apply it anyway.

I have stayed dressed as a woman all day and had changed her hygiene products on a regular basis. I have applied makeup and have put nail polish on my fingernails.

It feels wonderful and right to be dressed as a woman. Once my wigs get here I will start going out as a woman, grocery shopping, clothes shopping, see about getting a manicure, ears pierced. I will start going to support meetings and to a club or tow.

0923-2021

 I need to repair something in the basement, once that is done I am going to become a woman for the rest of the day.

I have a bottle of hair remover lotion that I need to use along with feminine douche. I also want to reapply nail polish to my toenails.

I have been wanting to put on a bra for the last few days, I haven't because of some body hair that grew back. I need to be in a feminine mood to clean my home as the male in me has let it go.

I also need to bring some more woman's clothes from downstairs to her bedroom and hang them up. Since it turned cooler out she might want to wear her boots out. Plus she has some coats that she can wear as she wants to start going out as the woman she is.

She has agreed to meet another cross-dresser when her wigs come in. She wants to make a good impression with the other woman and her wife.

09-15-2021

 I have a few errands to make today and I will be doing them under-dressed and smelling like a woman. Here in a few minutes I will taking a shower using scented body wash, douching and inserting a tampon. Once flushed out so to speak, I will reinsert a well lubricated tampon back into my bio pussy. Apply scented body cream, use woman's deodorant, don panties with a sanitary napkin,pantyhose and control brief. I may wear woman's jeans if not than drab jeans and drab top. I will spray some perfume on.

09-14-2021

 I applied Nair all over my body waited about five minutes and watched wash down the drain. It felt wonderful and right. Got out and put on a terry cloth robe, lubed up my bio pussy and took a douche as I use them as an enema. I then inserted a lubricated super tampon into it. Proceed to shave my face and waited about thirty minutes before I removed the tampon.

Sat on the toilet to remove the rest of liquid, then reinserted another well lubricated super tampon, applied scented lotion to my body, sprayed on some perfume and applied woman's deodorant. I then don my panties with a sanitary napkin, bra, black pantyhose, heels, control brief and full slip.

It feels so right and wonderful. Once my wigs arrive I will be going out dressed as a woman.

09-13-2021

 I just ordered two wigs, I am slowly getting ready to venture out next month as a woman. I even went on a web-site to check out breast plates. I think would be so much nicer to wear as you wouldn't have to worry about one of them silicone inserts slipping out of your bra.

I have been keeping nail polish on my toenails and my body hair free. I am getting ready to remove a weeks worth of it growing back. Next month I will need to do it more often like twice a week as I want my skin and legs to be smooth.

I will also need to start taking enemas more often as I need to start playing with my toys more. I love having that vibrator inside of me. When I have it inside of me I will have an organism from deep inside and the only thing that comes out is dribbles.

09-01-2021-B

 Haven't made it to the store will do it in the morning, this evening I will be taking a shower and douching then insert a tampon, panties and a bra and lounging around as a woman.

On Thursday morning after I do my chores I will take another shower, douche and insert a tampon, apply scented body lotion, spray myself with perfume don panties with a sanitary napkin. May don a bra it is suppose to be cooler, tee shirt with a sweatshirt. Pantyhose on then some drab slacks or jeans, no socks and go grocery shopping.

I will have to get at least one bottle of hair remover lotion if not two bottles and another 4-pack of feminine douche.

That way when I get back on Monday afternoon, I can use the hair remover and douche.

09-01-2021

 I will be going away for Labor Day Weekend with my ex-wife and her oldest daughter. I have to be drab mode all weekend. 

Right now I am wanting to apply nail polish to my toenails, knowing that I can't is driving me nuts.

I still need a few things from the grocery store and I may buy some hair remover so when I get back on Monday afternoon I can use it and become a woman or at least dress as a woman.

I will probably go to the store with my lingerie and pantyhose on under my drab attire. I will be smelling like a woman also. .As I enjoy using scented body soap, scented body lotion and spraying myself with perfume.

08-26-2021

 Came in from mowing my grass and doing another chore outside. Took a shower using scented body soap, once out I used a feminine douche as an enema and inserted a tampon. Sat around for about 30 to 45 minutes before I took it out. I then reinserted another well lubricated tampon back inside of me, put some scented body lotion on, don panties with a sanitary napkin. Found some suntan pantyhose put them on, decided I needed a bra on. put one on then sprayed perfume on. Got a control brief out and put it on along with some low heels.

It feels wonderful and right. I will be doing this again in the morning but will go farther with it. Maybe a dress but will for sure include makeup.

08-22-2021-C

 I had my day being tomorrow planned out, I was going get up early do my outside chores then come in take a shower and get completely dressed as a woman.

I even went to the store this evening for feminine douche and tampons. I was going to go all out. I was planning on using my breast pump and vibrating dildo. I haven't use either one for a while. I was going to stay dress as a woman all day. Including my makeup and earrings.

That change a female friend is coming by in the morning. Last week when she here was she hinted around about me having no hair on my legs. Tomorrow if she brings it up again might just show her why there is no hair on my legs.

Really don't want to until  I get a wig or two.

Monday and Tuesday are out for dressing as a woman.

08-22-2021-B

 She took the liberty of doing what she wanted, she is now hairless and has nail polish on her toenails. Here in a bit she will apply scented body lotion all over her body then don her panties with a sanitary napkin in them, she may put on her bra and one of his oversize tee shirts. She is thinking of pantyhose and her woman's jeans. She may even apply some makeup before heading out to the store this evening.

08-22-2021

 I am tempted to remove what body hair that has grown back and apply nail polish to my toenails. The only problem is I like to use a feminine douche as an enema, then insert a tampon in to hold it in for a while. Once flushed out so to speak I will re-insert a well lubricated tampon then get dress as a woman including makeup and perfume.

I do need some laundry soap, may head to the store and get it along with the feminine douche and tampons. Then first thing in the morning I can get back into my feminine self.

08-21-2021

 I keep thinking about selling out and buying a small house in the city or move to an apartment. If moved into an apartment wouldn't have to worry about any home maintenance that would need to be done.

I am getting tired of living a double life and would like to get my eyebrows tattoo on along with eyeliner and lips tattoo on. I would like to see how it would be to live dress and shop as a woman. To get a manicure and pedicure done, to go to a beauty salon for hair appointments. Then maybe see about hormones and/or breast argumentation.

May have to think some more on this.

08-18-2021

 Ex-wife hasn't said anything else about whether I shave my legs or not.

They will remain bare I can promise that.

I just placed an order for more perfume, scented body soap, scented body lotion as I know I will be using it before long.

If she brings it up again hopefully I will have some wine in my systems and will come clean with her.

Who knows she might embrace it and run with it or tell everyone about it. Only time will tell.

08-14-2021

 My ex-wife came by on Thursday Morning, she wanted to ask me a personal question but didn't know how to word it. I told her just go a head and ask what she wanted to know.

I wasn't ready for what she wanted but she asked and I denied it, she asked if I had a secret about my life that I kept hidden from everybody. I said like what and she said that I like to dress in woman clothes and wear makeup.

How I wanted to really open up to her but was afraid of it getting out and I am not ready for that.

Told her I used to do it but not anymore and I haven't, mainly because I have a bad knee  and I can't bend it enough to get my pantyhose on or even apply nail polish to my toenails.

It is even hard to get dressed as a male let alone as a woman.

I wish I would had open up to her maybe in the fall I will.

07-21-2021

 I had a checkup this past Monday and I had gain some weight, every else was in check but me personally didn't like the weight.

Before next check up which will be in January, I want to lose the pounds. I think I would feel better plus I will able to drop down in dress sizes. I would like to wear a garter-belt and stockings, I can do that if I lose the weight.

07-17-2021

 I couldn't stand it anymore having body hair it had to go, this afternoon it went. I even applied nail polish to my toenails and have used a feminine douche as enema. I now have a lubricated tampon in my boi pussy, once flushed out I will re-insert another lubricated tampon back in. I will apply scented body lotion to my body, don a bra, panties with a sanitary napkin and see where it goes from there. I am thinking pantyhose and a control brief then drab attire as the male self was invited out this evening.

07-07-2021

 I finally got the new to me bedroom set moved into the house and moved the old set into the spare bedroom. I still need to repaint the Mistress room but it will have to wait until that needy dog leaves. 

I'm waiting on a mew mattress to arrive for the woman of the house. 

Hopefully it arrives soon.

Hopefully needy dog leaves soon also.

I need to be able to dress as a woman and to use her toys on herself.

07-04-2021

 Seen my second ex-wife yesterday she had her eye brows tattoo along with eyeliner top and bottom tattoo. Needless to say I was jealous, didn't tell her that. 

I have thought of having that done since my first divorce some 29 years ago.

07-02-2021

 The urge to be feminine is getting stronger everyday. I need to get hairless, apply nail polish to my toenails, douche and inset a tampon in my boi pussy. Then to apply scented body lotion, perfume and get under-dressed as a woman or even dressed as a woman and go out somewhere.

I have a need or a want to do it.

06-29-2021

 Informed today that I would be dog sitting for another 4-weeks, that is a long time.

Something will have to happen in that time, lost of body hair, douching and inserting of a tampon. Dressing as a woman or at the very least going out under-dressed and smelling like a woman.

She needs to get out and express herself.

06-28-2021

 Having that urge to become a woman, it gets stronger everyday. I need to restock my feminine supplies such as hair remover lotion, feminine douche, sanitary napkins and tampons.

I need to get back to using my breast suction cups and my vibrating dildo.

I just order some makeup that I used to use on a regular basis from Amazon as the stores don't carry it anymore.

Hopefully that dog will go back to its owner soon.

06-18-2021

 I have been dog sitting for a friend who broke both of her wrists. Every move I make that dog is right there with me, can't even go to the bathroom without it want in the room with me.

Not used to getting up early either but it is.

I would love to get into my feminine mode but afraid the dog would ruin it for me. he seems like needy dog always wants to be in your lap or jumping up on you.

Hopefully by July he can go back to his owner and I can go back to being a woman again.

The dog belongs to a friend that has no interest in what I enjoy doing in my spare time.

06-08-2021

 Since Sunday I have been dog sitting for a friend, not crazing about doing it but it's here. Can't really do the things I would like to do.

I was hoping to be feminine mode since the first week of June and for most of the summer, if I'm lucky it may happen by July to be in constant mode as a woman and able to go out in the fall as as one.

05-27-2021

I keep thinking if I didn't live in the country with animals to take care, I would be living as a female right now.

I often wonder if I still lived in a subdivision how I would be female most of my time if not all of my time. The same way if I lived in an apartment I would be living as a woman. every moment of the day I would be a female or at least living as one. Doing my grocery shopping or just out window shopping as a woman. I would have seen about taking hormones or getting breast argumentation done to increased my breast size. I would be out excising, sunbathing, taking walks in the park all as a woman.

I think most of the people that transition to a woman have the right mind set, there are a few that can't get in the right mind set that have trouble with transitioning  to a woman.

05-24-2021

 I have been letting my fingernails grow out and I have been shaping them at least  once a week. Later this year or when I can afford a wig I will apply nail polish to them when I am dressed as a woman. I do want to start going for drives again when I am dressed as a woman like I used to many years ago. This time I may stop at the mall and go shopping as a woman. If I can make that happen then I will start going out and socializing as a woman.

05-19-2021

 As much as I want to live full time as a woman at this point and time I can't. I live in a rural area and have animals outside that I need to take car of. I understand some women do it but not this woman. I will need to sell everything that I have gotten as a male. Move into an apartment somewhere and be a woman full time.

To be able to go about my life as a woman doing everything and going everywhere as a woman.

I will need to get a smaller vehicle than what I drive now, I may just save up and buy a second vehicle to drive this fall through spring. I should be able to go out in the evenings and on the weekends as a woman. May even be able to travel for at least overnight somewhere.

Until then at once a week if not more I will spend my day completely dressed as a woman including makeup and perfume. I will start lining out in the sun in my woman's swimsuit.

05-18-2021

 This morning something came over me to where I felt the need to get completely dressed as a woman and to stay this way. Not only for the morning/day but to be like this from here on out.

That I need to be a woman from this day forward. That I need to purge all of the male clothes in this house and to go shopping as a woman clothes to increase my wardrobe.

I also need to find some makeup that I like and will probably go to a wig store and buy one until my own hair grows back out. When it does I want to go to a beauty salon for colored and styled. That is when I will get my ears pierced.

I will need to find somewhere to get a body wax or start having it removed by electrologist.

I need to start going out as a woman..

05-11-2021

 Finally got my hair remover lotion and sanitary napkins, I will be using the hair remover lotion later today. I will be dressing completely either later today or tomorrow for sure.

I have some new makeup I need to experiment with to get the correct look I want or need.

Once my hair grows out I want to get styled and colored, I also want to get my ears pierced at least once in each ear.. I getting tired of wearing clip earrings. I think with my ears pierced it will easier to go out dressed as a woman along with my hair styled and colored.

Time will tell.

05-09-2021

 I could go to the grocery store and get a few items, mainly feminine items. I need some hair remover lotion, razors, sanitary napkins and bubble bath soap. I would like to start taking baths again and shaving my legs while taking a bath or soaking in hot scented water,

The only problem I have a trailer hooked to my vehicle. It wouldn't be that much trouble to unhook it, if it is done before it starts raining.

It would make the day go by easier, dressing as a woman, that way later in the week I go out somewhere as a woman (dreaming again). At least under-dressed as a woman with some makeup and perfume on.

05-05-2021

 The woman came late last evening to give me the money owed. This morning it has cooled down and really hard to get back into feminine mode. I need to move an excising machine into another room where I can dress as a woman while using it. My fingernails are growing out, I need to shape them and I will be able to put nail polish on them. I have clear nail polish I may put on them but would rather apply the same color as my toenails. It would be nice to have the same color on my lips as well.

Hopefully by October my hair will be long enough to get it styled in a feminine style and I can go out as a woman.

I am still wanting to go to a Adam & Eve store dressed as a woman and purchase a few items. Time will tell if it happens.

05-04-2021

 I would love to be in my feminine mode right now, there is a woman that is suppose to come by and pay me some money that is owed. The only problem with this certain woman is not a fan of feminine males. So I have to stay in drab mode until she shows up.

Then I can get into full feminine mode, I have some new makeup I want to try out.

05-03-2021

 I was having second thoughts about getting into my feminine mode today. That was until I went onto pinterest and seen a couple of photos and made my nipples hard. That is the way I know I am a sissy at heart when my nipples get hard and start tingling. Being born a male for most that thing between their legs would get hard, not this male his nipples get hard.

It will take a little longer in the shower as I need to shave my body, then douche and insert a tampon. Before donning lingerie I will apply scented body lotion then spray myself with perfume, don panties with a sanitary napkin, bra, pantyhose, woman's jeans, drab shirt and loafers. I am almost tempted to wear woman's slacks, a woman's blouse and woman's shoes. Of course I would then have to carry a purse and everyone that would see me would know I am a sissy.

Maybe when it turns cooler I will wear that outfit out.

04-30-2021

 I want to start doing some exercises, I should say my feminine side wants to. She would like to do them as a woman but couldn't figure out what to wear.

Last evening it finally came to her. she has the two piece swimsuit, she could get a one swimsuit plus she has a pair of tights. She can put the tights on then either the two piece swimsuit or get a one piece swimsuit and do her exercises while wearing that outfit. She may have to get some athletic shoes to wear.

04-28-2021

 After being up for a few hours, something came over me and I had to get a bra and put it on. It feels so good and feels right that I have my bra on. My nipples are hard  and full.

I need to do something outside and when I come back in looks like I will be getting into my woman's lingerie after taking a shower using scented body soap, douching inserting a tampon and perfume.

I ordered some Mac makeup from Macy's this morning, I usually buy it at the grocery store something a bit cheaper and I loved it but they stop making or carrying the foundation and face powder I liked. So I will see how Mac works out, I always felt comfortable wearing the makeup and hopefully I will feel comfortable once again.

Hopefully next week I can get outside while wearing my two piece swimsuit.

04-25-2021 "B"

 I have notice the couple across the road from me has been gone for several days. I was planning on wearing woman's clothes out to do some shopping the first of the week. I have a pair of woman's slacks and a woman's shirt that I could wear. I also have a black purse that would go with the outfit. It would appear I was a sissy out shopping.

Well that isn't going to happen now they just showed up, I will have to figure something else out.

04-25-2021

 Laying in bed this morning the thoughts going through my mind was, some one was making love to me. First thing they were playing with my breast and nipples, then went down to lick my clit and the next thing I know I was telling to stick it my pussy. That I wanted to feel the cum inside of me. The next thing I woke up with a boner.

I got it bad wanting to be a sissy/woman,  Too strict of upbringing as I feel ashamed to admit to myself that I need to transition to being a woman.

04-24-2021

 I often think if I wasn't in a financial bind, I would be tempted to sell out and move to a bigger city and dress full time as a woman. It is so relaxing when I am dressed as a woman, plus it feels so right.

I would love to have breast augmentation done to being my breast up to a full C-cup, provided I could dress full time. I would have to work on losing some weight to be able to dress full time.

By moving some place new I could down size in a vehicle that would more be like what a woman would drive.

04-22-2021

 I need some printer ink and need to mail some bills, I have decided that when I do go out I will be under-dressed as a woman. I will also have some makeup and perfume on as well. 

First I need to apply hair remover all over my body, I brought some feminine douche and tampons last week, I will be using them today. I also need to apply color nail polish to my toenail.

It felt wonderful going out with my feminine hygiene products, under-dressed and smelling like a woman. I even wore a woman's top under my shirt.

I need to do it more often in the near future.

Next week it is suppose to get back up in the eighties, would be a good time to work on my tan while wearing my woman's two piece swimsuit.

04-18-2021

 I had high hopes of getting some chores done outside this morning, it got shot down when I went to rent something and couldn't get it.

Came back home and now I am thinking of applying nail polish to my toenails, applying hair remover lotion all over my body, douching and inserting a tampon and being a woman for the week. It would be a lot better if would stay warm all week,only that isn't the case suppose to turn cold again.

I would love to lie out in the sun and work on my feminine tan in my two piece swimsuit.

Oh well might check some web-sites for woman's clothes.

04-14-2021

 I'm sitting here under-dressed as a woman with perfume on and foundation, face powder, mascara and kip gloss on.

I need some feminine items from the store and a few grocery items as well.

If my hair was longer, finger nails were longer and shaped as a woman's, I would be tempted to leave here completely dressed as a woman to do some shopping

Instead I have to go out partially dressed as a woman and smelling like a woman.

I am slowly getting back to a time when I used to go out for drives or to the post office after hours as a woman. Baby steps is what I am taking.

Before I go out completely as a woman I need to get a second vehicle instead of the big pickup I drive. She needs an economy  car/ SUV to drive.

04-13-2021

 I had ordered a assortment of panties and bras last month and they arrived last week. I washed them all so I can start wearing them everyday with a sanitary napkin in them.

Now I need to order some jeans, shorts, woman's tee shirts and tank tops for summer wear. I also need a couple more everyday purses.

I still need to restock my makeup and still need to work in that spare room so I can get the Mistress bedroom done.

I also need a couple of wigs.

04-08-2021

 I miss douching and inserting a tampon in my backside. I also miss not using a dildo and my breast suction cups. I will have to start using both again.

Whenever I took a shower I would always douche and insert a tampon, once flushed out I would then use my dildo. After pleasured myself I would reinsert a well lubricated tampon then get dressed as a woman. If I was going grocery shopping or just running errands I would go about my business under-dressed as a woman. I used to go about my day smelling like a woman as I always used woman's deodorant, woman's scented lotion and perfume. I need or want to start up again being that person.  

I have been cutting calories, trying to get by on the least amount. I have drop down two inches around my waist.

I need to restock my makeup, foundation, face powder, mascara , eye shadow, eyeliner and lip gloss/lipstick. I also want to get more scented lotion, scented bath oil and perfume.

I just need to restock my wardrobe with all woman's attire, shoes and purses along with a assortment of outerwear such as coats/jackets.

04-07-2021

I finally got rid of my body hair and tried on the swimsuit. I will have to glue on my breast when I have top of the swimsuit on.

I can't wait to lie out in the sun while wearing it.

I still need to apply the nail polish on my toenails.

I still need to transplant some rose bushes, kinda late but still needs to be done.

Some how some way I am going to be dressed as a woman for the summer and rest of the year. I will need to buy woman's shorts and tank tops, maybe a summer dress.

I need to see if I have any feminine douche and tampons, if not will have to get some.

04-06-2021

 I didn't lose the body hair yesterday hopefully that will happen today. I still need to apply nail polish to my toenails. I would like to find a pair of woman's sandals. I don't think they make them in my size may have to go with flipflops.

It would be nice to get a large towel, flopping hat, beach bag or large straw bag/purse and cover up for my woman's swimsuit.. I will also need a new wig. To be able to go somewhere and lie out in the sun or to a beach. 

04-02-2021

 After Easter I will remove what body hair that grown back and will apply nail polish to my toenails. My swimsuit came a couple of days ago still haven't tried it on. I want to get the full affect of being completely hairless and nail polish on my toenails.

I have some pantyhose coming along with some more panties.

He needs to transplant the roses along the fence line in thee side yard and she wants to get some bushes to screen the backyard. The next time he is a garden store he needs to get her some garden gloves and a flopping hat. 

Later this spring through early fall she will be in the backyard, in the summer time she will be in her swimsuit getting that feminine tan.

03-27-2021

 A couple of months ago I wouldn't have thought twice about going out  wearing a bra and some makeup on. Yesterday that is what I wanted to do, I was completely under-dressed as a woman including bra, had on a woman's top and blue jeans. I had applied my foundation, face powder, eyes shadow and lip gloss. As we are still required to wear a mask figure I could get by wearing lip gloss. I also had on a pair of woman's flat shoes but I was taking an extra pair of drab shoes to wear in a store.

Before I even made it out of the hallway I went and removed my makeup, remove the top and bra, changed into drab jeans and a tee shirt.

I really need to get back into dressing as a woman and going out with woman's clothes on. I really do enjoy wearing woman's lingerie, pantyhose and makeup. Just need to start doing it again and taking small steps.

03-021-2021

 Finally got around to using my hair remover lotion yesterday and it feels wonderful not having any body hair. I will be using it at least once a week to keep it all off.

I need to start looking at some woman's swimsuits as I need and want to work on a feminine tan this year, I am thinking of a two piece this year.. I also need some more woman's tank tops, shorts and woman's sandals.

I will continue to douche and insert tampons just not like I used to, I will limit them to about five days a month. Instead of three weeks out of the month like I was doing. I still wear a sanitary napkin everyday in my panties and change it at least three times a day. I do enjoy wearing woman's deodorant, scented body lotion and perfume whenever I am going out regardless of how I am dressed.

I need to start wearing woman's shorts and tops along with the sandals when out shopping. I will have to carry a purse as I know there won't be any pockets to carry anything in. I will have to wear some makeup as well. Seems like I have my summer planned out. 

I found a swimsuit at J.C.Penny's website that I liked it is a two piece that I ordered this morning the top is larger then the bottom which should fit as I ordered my size in the top and the bottom in my size. I will try both on when it comes.

I will plant some bushes along my fence line to screen from the road, don't really care if hot looking neighbor sees me or not.

03-18-2021

 Still haven't used the hair remover lotion, looking more like Sunday might be the best day to do it. I am back to wearing panties and a pad everyday. Today after taking a shower I sprayed some perfume on the donned panties with a pad, bra a woman's top and sweat pants for now. The bra feels so good on my chest that it is keeping my nipples hard. I may have to put on a pair of nipple clamps that I have.

My feminine self has written another letter to my second ex-wife telling her that she wants to be her BFF and that she is going to Easter services as the woman she is. From Easter forward wherever she goes she will do it as a woman and come summer she will be lying out in the sun wearing a woman's swimsuit. She would also like to meet her for brunch/dinner and go out shopping as two women. It hasn't been mailed yet but she wants to do it soon.

I don't think it will go over well and will probably never hear anything about it, unless she sees her out somewhere.

03-16-2021

 It felt good wearing panties and a pad all day yesterday, wore my bra up until I went to bed last night it felt wonderful also.

Sometime this week I will use the hair remover lotion all over my body. I brought some new nail polish yesterday and I might try it out after losing the body hair.

I need to get a couple of purses for every day use, the two I got are for a more dressy style occasion. Woman's slacks and jeans aren't made to carry anything in the pockets. So if I wear them out I will need a purse to carry my stuff in. I thought yesterday how nice a purse would be as I didn't have enough pockets to stick my glasses, cell phone and shopping list in.

Probably need to shop for summer wear such as tank tops, shorts, sandals, light weight dress and a woman's swimsuit. I want to lie out in the sun or work when the sun is out to get a woman's tan.

03-15-2021

 Took a shower this morning using scented body soap, once out shaved my face then used woman's deodorant, sprayed perfume on, donned panties and a sanitary napkin. Went into the bedroom and put on a matching bra and a pair of tights and a woman's top. Then put on my drab attire.

I almost forgot the feeling of wearing panties and a bra, not anymore this will be my choice here on out. I may have to get my silicone breast out of storage or just get in gear and get those rooms done.. Either way I will be wearing more woman's clothes when I go grocery shopping and will start wearing makeup again.

Hopefully one of these days I will go out shopping dressed completely as a woman.

03-13-2021

 I got to thinking about some of the previous dreams I had when back in 2017 and 2018 as to why a strange man would be in my house when there was a house hold of females living with me at the time. Maybe in my mind I am or was a woman or still am a woman. 

Why I would be dressed as a woman and a man come up behind me and take me sexual as a woman.

Just know I wouldn't mind having some more dreams like that.

03-12-2021

 I'm having withdraw from not dressing as a woman, so this evening I went downstairs to get a few items out of storage.  I got some bras, panties, sanitary napkins,pantyhose, got my shoes out a pair of low heels and flat shoes.

When I go grocery shopping I am planning on being under-dressed as a woman and will get hair remover lotion and more sanitary napkins.

I also ordered more bras and panties from Her Room this evening, if he doesn't work on that room she will.

03-11-2021

 He still hasn't got the other room finished or the Mistress bedroom painted. She is wanting both done here in the near future.

Especially since he agreed to a new mattress for her, she will be getting a new bed as well, the old one she is using now will go into the spare bedroom.Where his clothes will be kept. Should say his few clothes. as she has a lot more than he does.

She will like to get a dresser with mirror to match her new bed. Where she could do her makeup. She will get new bedding in a more feminine appeal. She want the whole house to scream a woman lives here, so everything will be in pastel colors.

02-09-2021

 I got mad at myself last week for allowing my cross-dressing to take over myself. Took most of my woman's attire and put it in a storage tub and took it downstairs. I still kept my panties and a couple of bras along with pantyhose and tights out. I also kept two pair of shoes out.

I still wear my panties, bra and tights under my drab attire I still keep my body hair free below my eyebrows, still use scented body soap, douching as an enema and inserting well lubricated tampons in my boi pussy, will apply scented body lotion and perfume. Then will don panties with a sanitary napkin, bra, tights a pull over dress and heels. Apply my makeup, earrings, necklace and braclets. I will stay dressed as a woman for four or five hours. Sometimes I will wear my lingerie and tights under my drab attire and go grocery shopping. other times I will just wear panties and a pad under my jeans.

I have been using a vacuum suction cups on my breast and a vibrating dildo in my boi pussy. it feels wonderful.

Yesterday I got to thinking of bringing the other stuff in the tub back upstairs and removing the drab attire to another closet in a another room and putting her clothes in his closet. As she has thought her clothes should be in the Mistress bedroom and his nasty clothes should be in the spare bedroom.

Before that happens she wants to repaint the Mistress's bedroom a different color more fitting for a woman.

01-18-2021

 Haven't been really able to go out fully dressed as a woman but when I do go out I am wearing a bra, panties with a sanitary napkin in them and tights under my drab attire. I also wear women's deodorant, scented body lotion and perfume. Here lately I have also been applying makeup, foundation, face powder, light eye shadow, mascara and lip gloss. Since we are required to wear face mask in  stores.

How I wish I could wear all feminine attire and go out shopping at a makeup counter and have my face done and show it off to the world without covering half of it up.