12-26-2015

I have came to the conclusion that I need to lose some weight, right now my mind says to dress as a woman but I will have to go on a spending spree for larger clothes.
So if I need to spend some money I would rather spend it on some more stylish clothes in a smaller size.
I have started on a plan to shed some pounds by spring, looking to lose twenty pounds or more.  It would be nice to get down to the weight I had when I got married some thirty years ago, skinny as a string bean as the old saying goes.  I would be happy to lose thirty pounds but if more came off so be it.

12-23-2015

I finally got completely dressed as a woman yesterday and it felt wonderful, I still need some feminine supplies and may pick them up tomorrow or this evening.
Next week it is suppose to be warm again but with some rain, it would be so nice to lose what body hair I got and to dress as a woman again.  I would really like to use the vibrating dildo I have before bad weather sets in for good.
I also need to find some employment somewhere, it would be nice if I could find it where I could be under-dressed or completely dressed as a woman.  But will take whatever I can find.

12-20-2015

That female friend friend can never be satisfy about anything,   That tree I hauled for her has turned into a nightmare for me.  I thought I would have a peaceful day getting some chores done then becoming a woman this afternoon.  That won't happen, have to go over there and cut the tree so it will stand up by itself..  I really need to be feminine here in the near future.

12-16-2015

I was planning on getting dressed as a woman today to do some errands but looks like it will have to wait until tomorrow now.  A female friend wants me to haul a Christmas tree for her this evening and it would cut into my feminine mood that I would be in if I got dressed as a woman today.  I might get one of my errands done today and will do the rest of them tomorrow dressed in woman's attire with some makeup and perfume on.

12-15-2015

I had thought I might have traveling this coming weekend so I had forgotten about buying some hair remover lotion and some much needed makeup supplies.  Now with the weather turning colder that weekend trip isn't going to happen.  It is suppose to have a shower tomorrow and if it does I will be going out under-dressed as a woman with woman's jeans and a woman's top on.  I have a light weight woman's coat that came last week I was thinking of sending it back but I might put it to good use on Wednesday.  Leave here as a woman carrying her purse and go out shopping as a woman and to come back home as a woman.  It could happen if I didn't  relive myself  before leaving the house.  It would be nice if I a certain woman or two around here could see me out and about dressed as a woman.  I would have to wear my heels as I don't have any woman's flat shoes.  I would also be wearing woman's jeans or slacks with a nice woman's top and I would diffidently be wearing makeup and perfume along with woman's jewelry.

12-07-2015

I had some chores that needed to get done this past weekend as a male.  Now that the weekend is over I will go back to being a woman during the day.  I have a half bottle of hair remover lotion left, will use it, then douche and hopefully use my vibrating dildo on myself.  Apply nail polish to my toenails and get dressed as a woman, then go to the grocery store for some much needed feminine hygiene  and cosmetic items.

12-04-2015

For the last few days I have been dressing as a woman including makeup, perfume and woman's jewelry and it has felt wonderful.  I just wish I could stay at it longer then what I have been.  Once I have an organism I need to remove everything, I need to work my way thru it.  I may need to go out and find someone to help get over having an organism and to stay dressed as a woman.
I will be getting dressed as a woman again today.  I ordered a coat, hat and gloves from Roman's yesterday hopefully when it come I will be going out in woman's jeans or slacks with a woman's top on with heels and makeup on.

11-28-2015

I have been having an overwhelming urge to get into a feminine mode and go out out shopping as a woman.  I have wanted to the last few days to remove what body hair that grown back, use a feminine douche as an enema, use my vibrating toys on myself, then insert a tampon, spray perfume on and get dressed as a woman, complete with makeup and have my silicone breast glued on.
To start going out as a woman and to just live as a woman, from day to day for the few days or weeks.

11-22-2015

I sometimes wish I still lived in the subdivision at least there I didn't have any chores to do outside and I could stay dressed as a woman all day long.  The only bad thing about it was every house was right next to each other it would be hard to leave and to come back as a woman when everybody would know only a male lived there.
I am thinking of leaving here tomorrow morning as a woman, it would be nice if I could find a  shopping bag from a woman's store to carry back in, once I get back home.  I guess if I really wanted to I could go shopping at a woman's store and have one.
I used to leave here dressed as a woman find a place to remove some items do my shopping then find a place to replace the items and come back as a woman.  I just need to skip the one place where I remove some items and keep them in my bra, keep the earrings and wig on and go about my business.

11/11/2015

I needed some things from the grocery store went there yesterday wearing panties with a sanitary napkin in them, black pantyhose, black all-in-one body brief, woman's jeans a drab tee shirt, men's gym shoes and a light jacket.  I also dusted my face with face powder, eye shadow, mascara and lip gloss.
I got the needed groceries plus two boxes of feminine douche, foundation and eye shadow.  I still would like to get eyeliner and another shade of eye shadow.  I could also get another bottle or two of hair remover or just buy a good woman's razor and some bubble bath beads.
It's hell living a double life at times if I ever could come into a ton of money, I would like to think I would give up my life style of being a male and become a woman full time.  I would also move to where it is socially accepted and warmer.

11-07-2015

I didn't make it out as a woman, for some unknown reason  I can't seem to make my way down the makeup aisle anymore when I go grocery shopping.
It has been several weeks since I have use feminine douche and have played with my anal toys.  I do need some more feminine douche, makeup foundation, eyeliner, eye shadow and woman's soap.  I could use another package of sanitary napkins and another bottle of hair remover lotion.
I may try again on Sunday to see if I can make my way down that aisle if I do then I can stay dressed as a woman for the next several days and be able to play with my toys.

10-25-2015

I wasn't going to get dressed as a woman today but here I sit with panties, sanitary napkin in them, jet black pantyhose, control brief,  bra with silicone breast inserts, woman's blue jeans, heels and a woman's pull over top.
I also applied foundation, face powder and lip gloss so far.  I can't forget about the perfume I sprayed on myself.  Here shortly I will apply some eye shadow and mascara.
Hopefully the grocery store won't be packed like it has been the last few times I have been there.  I really need some feminine supplies.
I didn't do it yesterday, I'm going to see if I have any makeup sponges in my purse and if I do I will getting under-dressed as a woman with some light makeup on and go out out and get my needed supplies.  As I have all of my chores done for the day.
I got lucky found an unopened bag of makeup sponges and a package of mascara.  I am now sitting here under-dressed as a woman with some makeup and lip gloss on along with perfume sprayed on.  I have my bra on with silicone breast inserts and heels on.  For now I have an oversize drab tee shirt on and will don a pair of woman's jeans and a pair a drab gym shoes to do my shopping in.  I will probably take out the breast inserts while I am shopping.
Depending on the weather I might not be home this weekend but if I am I want to go out completely dressed as a woman to a gay and lesbian club.  Starting next month I want start going out as a woman either in the evening to a club or out during the day to do some shopping.

10-20-2015

Had to do some chores around here in drab attire today.  My new wig should here on Wednesday and hopefully by Thursday I will be to dressing as a woman.
I still need a few things from the store for my transformation into dressing as a woman.  Mainly makeup as I am running low.
Hopefully when I am out doing some more chores in drab attire tomorrow I can get what I need or what she needs.
I am still planning on going out as a woman at the end of the month and I will have a manicure done with just clear nail polish.
Hopefully by this time next year my hair will have grown out and I will have my ears pierced and my hair styled in a feminine cut.
It would be so nice to have someone to share this with, to have somebody suck and nibble on my breast, to have them treat me as a woman.

10-19-2015

I found myself wanting to be a woman this afternoon and here I sit completely dressed as one and it feels so wonderful and natural.
Surely to God a natural born woman has to feel beautiful when dressed in nylons, heels, makeup and a dress if she doesn't then something has to be wrong with them.
Still waiting on my new wig, love the dresses I got would really like to go out shopping as a woman to try them on before buying them.
I need to work on losing some weight so that I can go down in dress sizes.
It has to be a wonderful feeling to have someone to share this activity with just wish I had someone.

10-14-2015

I really miss not dressing today as a woman but had some needed chores that needed to be done outside.
On Thursday I will once again be dressing as a woman as my tops and new dresses came today and I need to try them on.
If all goes well I should be able to dress as a woman for the next couple of days and if my new wig comes in I may even go out for a drive somewhere.
Today is Thursday morning from the time I took a shower to dress and applying makeup it was 30-minutes.  I didn't take a douche or used my vibrator, but still feels wonderful being dressed as a woman.
One of my new dresses came yesterday and I guess the other one will arrive today or on Friday.  It feel so nice and looks good on me.
Hopefully my new wig will come either today or in the next few days. 
I need to find somewhere to get a manicure done as I do want to go out as a woman, the feeling is getting stronger everyday.

10-13-2015

Have been feminine for the last two day and it feels wonderful I even have applied makeup.  I tried on my new dress like it but not the top it will be going back.
I have come to the conclusion today the vibrating dildo feels good but I have to get a bigger one, it just isn't giving me the satisfaction I crave.
Hopefully by end of month I will going out as a woman, I ordered a new wig a bit darker then then my hair and shoulder length.  I desperately want to go grocery shopping as a woman and to start going out to clubs as a woman.
I do need to get a manicure done and have my eyebrows arch into a feminine shape.
I have ordered a couple of new dresses and some more tops along with pantyhose and knee highs.
I have a hard understanding myself why I like to dress as a woman and try to explain to someone why I do it.
My hope if and when I start to go out dressed as a woman is that I can find someone who likes this side of me and doesn't mind when I feel the need to dress as a woman.  They whether it is a woman or a man will see to it that I become the best person I can be when I am dressed as a woman.

10-09-2015

Got back from a mini vacation as a male still haven't tried on my new dress and top.  I believe I am going to have make myself lose the body hair that has grown back and to become the woman that is inside of me.
She did get her way the other evening where she ordered some new tops and two new dresses, plus she ordered some scented body wash and scented body lotion from Victoria Secret.
I should have been back into my feminine mood by now but that hasn't happen, hopefully by end of weekend I will be.

09-27-2015

I believe the urge to be feminine is coming back, my order has arrived and I need to try the dress and the top on to see how I look in both items.
I am out of scented body wash but will use the bottle of hair remover I have left and some scented body lotion.  I will also us a feminine douche as I will want to use my vibrating dildo's before getting dressed as a woman.
I need to go out grocery shopping this week and when I do that I want to be under-dressed as a woman with some light makeup on.
I am hoping the man across the road will be going back to work in the next few weeks, he was in a bad accident back in April and he has put a dent in my wanting to dress as a woman and going out for drives dressed as a woman and just going out and being seen as a woman.
Hopefully by the end of October I will be going out dressed as a woman to shop for a dildo and to do my grocery shopping as a woman.  I wouldn't mind going shopping for scented body wash, scented body lotion and perfume as a woman, of course I would also be shopping for woman's wear, woman's shoes and woman's jewelry as a woman.
Hopefully by middle of the month I will be going to a support group for women like myself.  Then look out world, here I come.

09-22-2015

Knew it was to good to last, have come to a stand still as far being feminine.  I'm sure that will change as least for a short time when I receive a dress and a top that I had ordered of of the internet from the Catherine's web-site.
I have to much going on this week as my male self but will take the time to try on my purchases when they arrive.
I did wash some dresses this past weekend and have them hanging in my closet for when I do decide to get back into my feminine mood.
I do need to take my woman's winter coat to a dry cleaner and have it cleaned.  May do that this week.
I have been telling myself that I need to start going out as a woman and would really like to go out as one window shopping or just shopping in general.  I would mind going out as a woman to do my grocery shopping of course I might stay a while in the makeup  and/or feminine hygiene aisle.  I do need to buy another bottle or two of hair remover lotion and another box or two of feminine douche as I use the douche as a enema.
I also want a bigger vibrating dildo, could go shopping for that dressed as a woman also.
I would need to have a manicure done for when I should start going out dressed as a woman.

09-17-2015

It has turned into a daily thing now taking a shower using a feminine douche and using my vibrators.  Today while I was using my vibrator I got back to thinking when I was in my teens I used to sit or rub my love hole and a posted bed  frame that my sister's slept in.  Apparently I knew way back that I was a sissy and wanted something in my love hole.
Only after getting a divorce did I actually to start to put something in back there from vegetable's to a saw off broom handle.  This went on for a while, until I started telling myself that I was a male and they didn't do those things.  I tried dating and the first woman I dated had a vibrating dildo that she used on herself, needless to say I was hooked.
Went from that one to another and it didn't last women that is, after the second strike out went to Wal-Mart and brought hair remover, panties, sanitary needs.  Went back to the apartment found a number and catalog for New-Port News woman's catalog and started shopping..  I would go in and out of wanting to be a sissy or even dressing as a woman.  I finally found a woman but she wasn't into the kink that I like and it lasted a good seven years and once again I found myself back into woman's attire and sanitary hygiene.
I am still friends with the last woman but it is a don't ask don't tell relationship without any strings.  I still dress as a woman and keep my body hair-free.

09-16-2015

Didn't do anything the other day except get into a feminine mood.  This afternoon I got back into another feminine mood, took a shower using scented body wash, ran a razor up my legs, stomach, chest and underarms.  Used a feminine douche a enema and inserted a super plus tampon to help hold I in.  Once I was flushed out I then moved to my bedroom where I inserted a vibrating dildo into my love hole and stuck a smaller under my sac.  I didn't want to do it but did always I masturbated but left the dildo in my love hole for a while after cumming
I was going to remove the nail polish on my toenails but had to change clothes and go and help a neighbor put in a window AC unit.  Once back home and my evening chore done I came in the house and inserted a regular flow tampon into my love hole.  Sprayed on more perfume got a pair of pantyhose and put them on along with a black all-in-one body brief, black slip on heels and a pull over dress.  It all feels so wonderful and right that I am dressed as a woman.

09-13-2015

It felt wonderful yesterday afternoon being dressed as a woman without makeup or jewelry on.  Later today I will be getting dressed again as a woman, this time I will glue my silicone breast on and applied makeup, don my woman's jewelry and wig.  I don't know will happen or if I will go out but I am having an urge to be completely dressed as a woman.
I do have a couple of things that I could snail mail if I wanted to go out as a woman.

09-12-2015

This afternoon toward early evening I am suppose to go to a wedding, but with a cold front that has come in it would be a great time to become a woman and to go out as one.
I need to do some chores outside and when I come back in it would be so nice to lose all body hair, take an enema using feminine douche and insert a super plus tampon to help hold it in.  Once flushed out I could use a vibrating dildo on myself, after an half an hour or so reinsert a regular flow tampon.  Apply scented body lotion all over my body, spray perfume on, don panties with a sanitary napkin, pantyhose, all-in-one body brief, silicone breast inserts, apply makeup, dress, heels, earrings, rings, woman's watch.  Load my woman's billfold and add some things to my purse and walk out the door for the unknown.
That would be a lot nicer then going to a wedding, unless I was out to everyone.
I didn't make it to the wedding, decided to stay home and become the sissy that I know I am.  Just lost all of my body hair, applied nail polish to my toenails,  have taken an enema using feminine douche and have super plus tampon inside of me.  Once flushed out I will use my vibrating dildo on myself and will either insert a butt plug that I have or will insert a regular flow tampon then get dressed as a woman.

09-10-2015

Had to go out today and while I was out doing a couple of errands I stop by the grocery store and brought 2-bottles of hair remover lotion, 2-boxes of feminine douche, 1-box of super plus tampons and 1-box of regular flow tampon.
I brought a few other things but really wanted my feminine needs.
Hopefully I will be using my feminine items tomorrow, Saturday morning at the latest.

09-09-2015

I have a wedding to go to as my male self on Saturday, the temperature is suppose to in the mid seventies instead of around ninety like it has been.
Before I head out to the wedding I could make sure that I had on perfume, tampon inserted into my love hole, panties with a sanitary napkin in them, pantyhose and one of my all-in-one body briefs on.  Then get dressed in my suit and tie, take along a dress, jewelry, purse, silicone breast, heels, wig and makeup.
I could rent a room in a motel and apply my makeup, insert my silicone breasts in my all-in-one, put on my jewelry, wig, don a dress with my heels and purse.  Pack my bag with male clothes and come back home as a woman.
With temperature being down that low I do want to dress as a woman and go out for a drive or to a club.

09-07-2015

I haven't made it to the store as of yet but have nail polish on my toenails.  I took a shower using scented body wash and sprayed perfume on.  I also used women's deodorant, sprayed perfume on a sanitary napkin and inserted it in my panties.  I also don a bra with my silicone inserts, put on a pair of woman's jeans and a men's tee shirt.
I may make it to the store for my feminine needs this evening or will wait until tomorrow to go.

09-06-2015

Have been home from a four day trip for two hours now and I am looking forward to becoming feminine in the next day or two.
I need to go out for some feminine supplies, hair remover lotion, feminine douche, super plus and regular flow tampons,  herbal hormones and spray on glue.  I might as well get some new mascara, eye liner and lip gloss and/or lipstick.
I am wanting to apply nail polish to my toenails and after using feminine douche stick a vibrating dildo inside of me and glue my silicone breast on, once the breast are set remove the dildo and insert a butt plug, spray myself with perfume and get dressed as a woman including makeup, wig and jewelry.
I need to start going out as a woman and to start socializing as a woman.
By this fall to early winter I want start doing my grocery shopping as a woman and to go window shopping as a woman.
It would be so nice if I could find employment somewhere, where I could be dressed as a woman.  To wear a dress with nylons and heels or a skirt, top and/or sweater with nylon and heels.  To leave here everyday dressed completely as a woman and to come back home as a woman.

8-6-2015

Today would have been a good day to get feminine but I blew that early this afternoon.  While I was outside doing some chores between the rain that we have had off and on all day.  I was using the weed wacker when something hit my back window in my vehicle, didn't think much of it until I got something out of it and closed the door then the window shattered.
It had put me in a foul mood for rest of the day, the only thing is now it will have to be Sunday before I can think about becoming feminine once again as I had agreed to have a birthday party at my house on Saturday, hence the reason I was cleaning the outside up.
I still need some spray on glue for my silicone breast, may stop somewhere tomorrow while I am out getting my window repaired.  By Sunday I will need some release for sure and no better way then to act and dress as a woman including makeup, perfume, jewelry, wig and to use my vibrating dildo's on myself.

07-29-2015

On Monday I use one of my vibrating dildo's myself and it felt wonderful, it suppose to cool off somewhat on Thursday and Friday of this week.  If or when it does I will put the dog back out and proceed to get into a feminine mood once again.  After douching I will insert a vibrating dildo inside of me and use another one around my groin area.  I want to be able to cum with touching that nasty things between my legs. 
In the near future I want to buy a dual breast pump the kind nursing mothers use.
I am looking forward to cooler weather where as I can go out wearing full makeup and be completely dressed as a woman.  I keep telling myself every year for the past few years that I want to go grocery shopping dressed as a woman on Halloween.  I would also like to find employment in a woman's specialty store where I could work dressed as a woman.  I would even consider working at PayLess shoe store if I could work there as a woman.

07-26-2015

I have a chore to do outside, it should take about three to four hours to get it done.  When I am done I will be getting on my way to being feminine once again.  After getting out of the shower and using  feminine douche I will try out one of my vibrating dildo's.  After it has been inside of me for 20 to 30 minutes, I will then insert a regular flow tampon and spray perfume on, then get dressed as a woman.  I may will put some makeup on along with woman's jewelry.

07-25-2015

The woman's tops came and I didn't like the fabric or colors so I sent them back.  Had planned on staying in a feminine mood all week but that changed on Wednesday when an old friend stopped by.  She needed to vent about her relationship with her ex-husband with who she lives with.  I really didn't want to hear it but sat there and let her vent.  From then on I wasn't in the mood to be feminine anymore.
Tomorrow being Sunday July 26 I will try again to be feminine all week, I also want to try one or more of my vibrators out.  I will need to go out on Monday for some meat to cook for supper leaning toward chicken, I want to start eating to control my weight and start back taking herbs and vitamins for women. 

07-19-2015

This afternoon being Sunday July 19, I will use my hair remover lotion, take an enema using feminine douche and insert a super plus tampon into my love hole to help hold the douche in.  I will then apply scented body lotion, spray some perfume on and proceed to get dressed as a woman.  My new women's tops should be here by first of the week and my dildo's should also be here by end of the week.
The next time I need to go out somewhere not only will I be under-dressed as a woman but will be wearing feminine jeans and a top.   Guess I could say I would be all dressed as a woman, might as well get used to carrying my women's billfold and purse whenever I go out.   Now I will have to shop for some woman's flat shoes, can't keep wearing heels wherever I go.
I hope to stay in a feminine mood all week, I do know what will keep in that mood I need to buy a chastity cage put it on and throw away the kegs to the lock.

07-14-2015

Have gotten the urge to be feminine again, since I need to go out to the grocery store this evening I will be getting another bottle of hair remover and another package of feminine douche.
I want to keep my supply up, as I have a feeling I will be doing this at least twice a week if not more, I know I will be using the douche more often then the hair remover lotion. 
I still need to find some glue for my silicone breast.
I didn't make it to the grocery store yesterday but after I get done with another chore outside I will taking a shower using scented body wash, applying scented body lotion take an enema using feminine douche and inserting a super plus tampon to help hold it in.  Once I am flushed out so to speak I will reinsert a regular flow tampon, spray myself with perfume and get under-dressed as a woman.
I did order some women's tops yesterday to wear with my woman's jeans and slacks.  I might as well go ahead and order a couple of vibrating dildos to use on my feminine self.
Two vibrators are on their way, when they come I will put them to good use.  I even brought one that has a remote control so that when I go grocery shopping I can turn it on to remind me to buy my feminine needs.  I might have to hold onto the grocery cart.

07-10-2015

Just gotten out the shower where I had used some hair remover lotion all over my body, applied scented body lotion, used a feminine douche as an enema and inserted a super plus tampon to help hold it in.  After thirty minutes or so I flushed it out, then inserted a regular flow tampon back into my love, sprayed perfume on, donned panties with a sanitary napkin , coffee color pantyhose, slip on heels and a all-in-one body briefer.
It feels so wonderful and right to be under-dressed like this.
I need to stop somewhere tomorrow when I am out and get some spray on glue, so I can glue on my silicone breast.
Somehow someway I need to start going out as a woman.
I want to experience being a woman with somebody, to have my nails done, ear pierced, go to a salon,  go shopping as a woman to performing as a woman in the bedroom.  To feel cum running down my legs and throat.
The dildo is nice but I want the real thing.

7-8-2015

Couldn't find any knee highs, put on a pair of pantyhose, then I put on a all-in-one body brief with a pair of slip on heels and some face powder but didn't make it out of the house.
Right now I have nail polish on my toenails and still playing with my nipples and breast.  When I do go out I will have on panties with a sanitary napkin in them, pantyhose on, women's jeans with a drab top and women's gym shoes.
I will buy a couple of bottles of hair remover lotion and a couple packages of feminine douche.  I also want to go shopping for a vibrating dildo.
Here in the next month or so I need to find employment, would really like to find somewhere where I could dress in women's attire and work dressed as a woman.
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07-07-2015

Back from July fourth weekend and have been having an urge to get feminine, have been having a hard time playing with my nipples and breast today.  I might need to don a bra to give them some support and to let the lace to wonders to them.
I need to go out to the grocery store for some eggs and salad and for some feminine items.  Hope to do that this afternoon.
Before going I will apply some nail polish to my toenails, use scented body wash in the shower, then apply scented body lotion, panties and woman's jeans with knees highs and  woman's gym shoes.  I may have to go with a drab top.

06-21-2015

I went ahead and removed all body hair and then applied scented body lotion on my body.  I also sprayed some perfume on and have gotten dressed as a woman.  I wanted to try on the dress and shoes that came yesterday, sorry to say the dress is too small and the shoes are tight.  Both will be going back.

6/20/2015

My dress and heels that I ordered earlier this week came to day, I was hoping to wait until after the fourth of July to get feminine but I think that may happen on Sunday or Monday now.  I still need some feminine douche and a vibrating dildo but can get by with the douche. 
I have a few chores to do outside if it ever stops raining then I will lose the body hair and use some scented body lotion, get under dressed as a woman and head to the store for the douche and some spray on glue for my silicone breast.
Then on Monday I will use the douche and get dressed as a woman with my silicone breasts glued on and try on the dress and heels along with some makeup, wig and women's jewelry.

06-15-2015

I went and ordered a new dress and heels from Lane Bryant just now.  I don't really need it but felt like I would look good in it.
I guess I am more of a woman then I want to let on, I am hoping by fall I can start going out as a woman.
 It would be nice to have another woman to go shopping with or just to have a woman's day and/or night out on the town.
At this stage in life I wouldn't mine a man taking me out as a woman, to have him have his arm around me, to order for me, to hold a chair for me.  To completely treat me as his woman.  Of course I would have to treat him as my man, when coming back from powdering my face I would drop my panties in his lap, but to keep something from springing up I would have to have it in a cage.
It has gotten to the point pictures don't do nothing for me , I have to read a story to get excited any more.  As the third sentence say's I am more of a woman then I let on.

06/14/2015

Ok, the urge is slowly building up but I have notice that I have hair that has just started growing on my back, of all of the places for it to grow.
I think I can use some hair remover lotion on a rag or wash clothe on a handle and get it off.  If that doesn't work guess I will have to go to a salon for wax strips or pay extra for electrologist  to remove all body hair.
I need to go to the store today or tomorrow and when I do I am buying some douche, in case I am successful in removing the hair on my back and other body hair.
Yes, I am going to get dressed as a woman.  I need my high and that is how I get it.

06/05/2015

Ever since Jenner has come out about being transgender, had breast argumentation done, some facial features done and a reality show about it.  I have been having an urge to purge all of my feminine attire.  I know as soon as it happens I will regret it.  I will just keep in store away until the urge to get feminine come back again as we all know it does.

06-02-2015

I have just gotten out the shower where I had rinsed my body hair down the drain, once I patted myself dry I applied scent body lotion.  I then placed some lubricant on a super pus tampon and took a feminine douche then inserted the tampon.  It feels so wonderful.  I will have to make a trip to an adult store and get a new vibrating dildo, the one I have now quit vibrating, I will still use until I can get a new one.  I will probably go to a store under-dressed as a woman, I would rather go there fully dressed as a woman if I thought I could pull it off.  It would be nice to find another woman to go with or with a man  with me being dressed as the woman.
I don't know how far I will go in dressing as a woman today but do know I will be under-dressed as one if I go somewhere.

05-31-2015

When I went the grocery store Friday evening for a few things they had changed everything around.  I can no longer go in there for just a few things, now I have to shop for what I don't need or want.  I really wanted to stock up on feminine douche as I only have one left.  I couldn't find it so now I have to go back in there and locate it so I know where to find it when I run low again.
I have a couple of errands to run tomorrow and right now I am thinking of doing it under-dressed as a woman.  I would have to lose my body hair, douche and insert a tampon, spray myself with perfume, panties with a sanitary napkin in them, pantyhose and a all-in-one body brief.
My nipples are getting hard just thinking about it.
Once I get back home then I could get fully dressed as a woman including makeup, wig, jewelry, heels, a dress or slacks and a top.

05-27-2015

It has been to long since the last time I have gotten into my feminine mood.  Here lately I have gotten into a bad mood swing.  I know it is from not being able to be feminine, I need to remove my body hair, douche and use my vibrating dildo on myself, glue my silicone breast on, insert a tampon into my love hole, spray perfume on, apply nail polish on my toenails, don panties with a sanitary napkin, pantyhose, all-in-one body brief, heels.  Then I would need to start applying my makeup, jewelry, wig, decide what to wear, transfer ID's and money from my wallet to my woman's billfold, load my purse up with my feminine items.  Grab my keys and go out for a drive and/or snail mail a letter at a post office.
I need to spend more time dressed as a woman.

4/21/15

It has been a long time, several weeks since the last time I had the time to become a woman.  Today I had decided that it was the day to use the rest of the hair remover lotion, applied nail polish to my toenails and have taken a feminine douche as a enema and have inserted a super plus tampon back into my love hole.  I also applied scented body lotion all over my body.
I need to go out probably in drab attire but under-dressed as a woman to the Lane Bryant store to pick up a couple of items.  I haven decided yet if I will be wearing  makeup or not.  I might put some on just because I can, usually when I do put some on I usually go all out  with the makeup.  I do know I will be wearing perfume.
I would love to find a woman who wouldn't mind this side of me and to be able to go out shopping as two women.

04-07-2015

I finally went and done it I am now completely hairless have been since Sunday and have use feminine douche twice since Sunday.
Today being Tuesday is the first chance I had to get completely dressed as a woman, including makeup and heels.  It was also the first chance I had to try on the new dress that came last week.  I like it, fits and looks good on me, I shouldn't keep it but I am going to keep it.  I think Macy's has turn into my favorite place to shop for women's dresses.
I still need more feminine douche, eyeliner and a couple of things from the hardware store.  I will be going out later with feminine items on under some drab attire.

04-04-2015

Either later today or tomorrow afternoon toward evening I will be using my hair remover lotion, applying pink nail polish to my toenails, douching and using my vibrating dildo on myself.  I will be on my way to dressing as a woman.  I still need a couple of things from the store eyeliner, feminine douche and some spray on glue for my silicone breast.  I may get under-dressed as a woman when I get ready to go to the store and purchase my needed items.
I am so looking forward to once again to be dressing as a woman, I will just have to be careful next week as the local school is on spring break and I know some bus drivers that may or may not drop by.  As I had some damage after all the rain we had this past week.  I can't do anything about it until I have some gravel delivered.  So I might as well enjoy myself dressing as a woman.

03/28/2015

Still waiting on the dress to arrive.  I have been having a debating with myself on what to do with the dress when it arrives, my male self wants to send it back  as soon as it arrives but my female side wants to try it on and see how she looks in it before deciding what to do.  I believe my female self will win out.
A few more chores to get done around here on the outside, then in about a week I will be ready to get back into a feminine mood.
I hope to stay in that feminine mood a lot longer then I have in the past.   To be able to wear my silicone breast and more feminine tops outside.  To work on a tan wearing a woman's one piece swimsuit.  Just to  having a hairless body again, using feminine hygiene products and be back in panties and a bra will feel wonderful.  Once I use some feminine douche to clean myself out and before inserting a regular flow tampon into my love hole, I will be using a vibrating dildo on myself, then I will be gluing on my silicone breast.  I do want to wear a bra and a top outside while doing some chores in my yard, of course I will also be wearing woman jeans and will have to find some woman's gym shoes or loafers to wear.
I would also like to find a used bike to start riding and to purchase woman's workout wear when I am riding the bike.

03-23-15

I just went ahead and ordered a woman's dress from Macy's. got to thinking I have always gotten my feminine self a new dress for Easter.  Even though I have let to wear one out somewhere for Easter Services somewhere.  Just wearing it around the house has been enough but who knows I may wear it out somewhere.
I need to take inventory on my feminine supplies to see what I need to restock on.  As the weather has turned warmer, I can get caught up on my chores then turn my attention  toward my feminine urges/desires.
What I wouldn't give to find someone to suck and nibble on my nipples.

03/17/2015

Snow has gone away but there are some chores I need to get up on before I can even think about becoming a woman.
When I do decide to start back again on dressing as a woman, I want to take my time applying nail polish on my toenails.  Take extra time on removing all body hair, using feminine douche, applying scented body lotion all over my body.  I also want to spend some time exploring with my vibrating dildo, once completely satisfy with it, then insert a tampon into my love hole.  Spray perfume all over my body, don panties with a sanitary napkin, pantyhose, all-in-one body brief and glue my silicone breast on.  Slip on some heels and proceed with my makeup, wig and women's jewelry.  Then select a dress to wear or a top with slacks/skirt.
Load my purse up with ID's and money and head out for drive, shop or to a club.

3/07/15

When I decide to get dressed as a woman again if this snow fall we had this past week ever goes away.
I will only be dressing at home for a while, until my hair grows out and I can get the look down pat that I will feel will be convincing when I to decide to go out.
I still want to work on losing some weight and to get into a smaller dress size.

02/18/2015

I have been looking at cross dressing web-sites more since I am snowed in then I normally do.
I need to take a shower and when I do I believe I will apply nail polish to my toenails, use hair remover lotion, douching and inserting a tampon.  Then I will spray myself with perfume, panties with a sanitary napkin, bra and lounge wear.
Tomorrow should I go out or do anything, I will take another shower using scented body wash, douche again and insert another tampon, spray myself with perfume, panties with a sanitary napkin. pantyhose and one of my all-in-one body briefs.  Then I will put on my drab attire if I am going out if not then I will be putting on a dress and heels with makeup, wig and jewelry.

02-16-2015

I was planning on going out today dressed completely as a woman.  I wasn't going to take no extra shoes or coat.  I was going to present myself as a woman out shopping.
That all got changed today as a major snow storm hit the area.  The weather forecast doesn't look good until next week sometime.
I may have to do some shopping on the internet instead.
Once the weather turns warmer I do want (need) to go out as a woman.  There is something inside of me that keeps telling my feminine self she needs to go out and about as a woman.  To go shopping and socializing as a woman.

01-28-15

Last evening I moved an exerciser equipment from my outdoor garage to the inside of my home.  Mainly because I want to be dressed as a woman when using it.  Outside I would have too many clothes on just trying to stay warm.  Inside my home I can wear skimpy feminine attire to work out in.
I also went out last evening to get some feminine supplies, which I am planning on going out more dressed as a woman.
Time to start exercising as I have on my skimpy attire.

01/26/15

For the last couple of days all I have been thinking about is excising dressed as a woman.  Today I will be dressed as a woman but before excising as a woman I want to go shoe shopping for some heels and woman's gym shoes.  While I am out I will also shop for nail polish, lipstick/lip gloss, mascara, foundation, feminine douche, hair remover lotion and hair dye.
I would like to buy an woman's excising outfit, then I would have to move the excise machine into my home instead of leaving it in the garage. 
I could do more excising as a woman and work more on losing my fab and getting control over my body once again.
I got completely dressed as a woman, from removing body hair to taking a feminine douche and inserting a tampon into my love hole.  I sprayed on perfume and donned panties with a sanitary napkin in them, coffee color pantyhose, black all-in-one body brief.  Applied my makeup, placed silicone breast on, donned a sleeveless sweater, black slip slacks, wig, earrings, woman's watch, rings and heels.
I then transfer my ID's from my male wallet to my woman's billfold, loaded my purse up, got a long woman's wool coat on.  Grab a pair of black gym shoes and walked out to my vehicle and got in. 
I drove to the payless shoe store, removed my earrings, silicone breast and change shoes.  I removed my billfold and put in the inside pocket of the coat.
I walked into the payless shoe store and brought two pair of woman's shoes.  The next time I go in there I will be wearing my silicone breast, heels, earrings and will be carrying my purse.
I think I have reached the point of going out as a woman shopping.  At the very least shoe shopping as a woman.

01-23-15

I haven't gotten back into my feminine mood since last week, I did check into a couple of fitness center.  I decide that they were too high for me so I went out and brought a second hand fitness machine today.
I will work on using it as soon as I can get it unloaded and hopefully in a couple of months I can see some results.  I will also start taking some black cohost pills and start eating some green leaf to increase my breast size.  I also want to get a breast pump the kind nursing mothers use to increase my nipples and breast.

01-16-15

I should be outside doing some chores but at the moment I am thinking about getting into a feminine mood and doing some errands under-dressed as a woman.
It has been closed to a month since the last I have gotten into my feminine self and I miss it.  I am also thinking of going to a fitness center to work on losing some weight.  I have come across some old photo's and would like to get back down to the weight I had in those photo's.  Plus my dress size would also go back down.
One part down as I am sitting typing this I have lost all of my body hair, have taken a douche and now have a regular flow tampon in my love hole.  I have sprayed perfume on, don panties with a sanitary napkin, black pantyhose, black all-in-one body brief.  Tried on my new shoes but they were too big, might need a size thirteen but not a size fourteen.   I even put in my medium size breast, which are probably glued on right now.
It feels so natural and right to be wearing my feminine things.
When I go grocery shopping this afternoon I need to pick up a few feminine needs as I want to go out as a woman next week and will need these items.
Hair remover lotion, nail polish, mascara, lip gloss and/or lip stick and some hair dye.

01-14-15

Later this week and into the weekend it is suppose to warm up again, when it does I will be using my feminine hygiene products along with my products from Victoria Secret to help in feeling feminine.  I will also dress in my women's attire and have my silicone breast glued on.
First of the week I will also leave here once again dressed as a woman and will find someplace to go as a woman.  I would really love to go shopping as a woman, for that to happen I would need to have something locked up to keep from playing with it.  If only there was a place to buy it locally.

1-12-2015

Since the first of the year I haven't really felt like getting into a feminine mood, probably because of it being so cold outside.  I wouldn't enjoy being my feminine self, but I believe that could change.  I need to do it as I have way too much women's attire to leave it sit in storage bins and dresser draws.  Plus I still think and have fantasies about being a woman or being dressed as a woman and making love to another woman and/or making love to man dressed as a woman.  Having either a woman with strap on make love to me and abuse my love hole or have a man use my love hole and me use his cum maker.
I have some new tops to wear along with a pair of new heels to try on.  I should have done it yesterday as the temperature was up in the mid forties but didn't.  Hopefully this week I will.