12-26-14

My feminine self had ordered two tops a couple of weeks ago and they came last week along with scented body wash and scented body lotion  that she also ordered.
Now with the shoes that she is waiting on, she will be getting dressed as the woman she thinks she is in the New Year.
She already had him get some hair remover lotion for her to use in the next couple of days and she will be using some feminine douche as an enema.
Of course when she uses it she will also use a tampon and sanitary napkin in her panties.
She is doing her best to convince him to let his hair grow out and if she can convince him to do it by this time next year (s)he should have pierced ears and will be wearing pierced earrings.
They both need to find employment somewhere, so he can pay bills and she can continue to shop for women clothes and accessories.

12-23-14

My male self has been having some issues with his toes, he seems to think that his female side has been wearing the wrong size woman's shoes.  She has been wearing the same size as her male part does.
To keep from giving it up she has ordered a new pair of heels two sizes bigger then her male self wears.  She is hoping this will convince her male side to keep up her female appearance as she has way to many clothes to just give up.
Plus she has ordered and have received some more scented body wash and scented body lotion from Victoria Secret.
She hasn't given up on being a woman and is more then willing to convince her male side to get that manicure and to start going out as a woman.

12-15-14

It took until today being Monday for him to get back into her feminine mood and only happen around 2:00 pm.
It now 3:30 pm and as far as she has gotten she removed the body hair applied nail polish to her toenails, taken a feminine douche and have a regular tampon inside of herself.  She did spray perfume on, panties with a sanitary napkin inside of them, black pantyhose, all-in-one body brief, black slip on heels, a light lace cover up.  She also has on her makeup and she is fighting with the male side as he wants to masturbate.  She wants to stay like this for as long as she can.
Now if she can convince him to get a manicure done then she will start going out as a woman.  There won't be no changing back and forth.  She will leave here as a woman do her thing as a woman and come back home as a woman.

12-12-14

My male self has convinced her to wait until the first of the next week to get the top and sweater.  He was also able to convince her to wait until Sunday to remove what body hair that has grown back.  She has gotten her way somewhat as he needs to go to the grocery store for a few things, he will be going there under-dressed as a woman with some makeup on.  He will also get her some new nail polish, foundation and new eyeliner.
He has agree to give her free rein on Sunday to do whatever she wants to do to his body.  He also agree to wear all feminine attire to the store to pick up her items.  He may balk at the heels but we will see.

12-11-14

My feminine self had ordered a top and sweater from Catherine's and just checked her email account it has come in to a local store.  She went with the free shipping to a store instead of having it sent to the house.
I could wait until next week to get it but will probably go out in the morning and pick it up.  She has been wanting to get feminine again, my male self was holding out until Sunday but it looks like it will be in the morning instead.  She will just have to early to get into her feminine self and go from there.

12-5-14

The day after she tried on one of the sweater dresses and she didn't like them.  It wasn't an hour later and she was walking out the door wearing a pullover sweater top, her new black slacks, black slip on heels, her long wool coat, wig, makeup and jewelry on carrying her purse and the bag of dresses.  She made a show for the woman across the road in case she was looking out.  She took her time in getting into her vehicle and then leaving as the woman she believes she is.  Once out of sight then the male side took over he removed the earrings and wig.  Found a place to remove the silicone inserts and change in gym shoes and a different coat.  Kept everything else on.  After sending the dresses back she made him change back into her attire and go back home as the woman she left as.

12-01-14

On this past Saturday my feminine self has managed to order a new pea-coat and a scarf from Jessica London.  Not that she needs it she just wanted it, She had ordered two sweater dresses and a pair of black slacks from Roman's and they came this past week.  She got the chance to try the slacks on and she fell in love with them,  I believe that is why she ordered the pea-coat, she is thinking that if she has that style coat she will be going out more.

11-26-14

I had wanted to get into my feminine mode today but that didn't happen.  I still need a few things from the store for tomorrow.  I had wanted to leave dressed as a woman but couldn't do it, now it is too late to start getting ready.  Hopefully on Monday I can do it and stay dressed as a woman for most of the day if not all day.

11-24-14

She has won this round, he didn't go to work yesterday.  So lets see what his feminine half will do today.  She should have done something on Saturday when the temperature was up near the seventy degree mark.  She could have use the hair remover lotion, applied nail polish to his toenails, taken a douche and used her vibrating dildo on him.  That didn't happen, she have better do something along that line today.  She also needs to starting going out as the woman she claims she wants to be.  She needs to do more things as a woman then he does as a male, which he is poor at.  Maybe she can succeed where he has failed.

11-21-14

I have just gotten completely dressed as a woman, a little late in the day but it is worth it.
I have been disagreeing with my male self, he wants to get a part-time employment but by doing so he will infringe on her feminine side who enjoys being a woman every chance she gets.   She is saying no don't do it, that she will continue to dress and take care of the house and will go out more as the woman she knows that she is.
Just like now she has him in a bra and panties and it is only early Saturday morning.  She has until around 5:00pm on Sunday to convince him not to take that employment.  We will see what happens.

11-19-14

That feminine urge is coming back around today, I can see myself going out later today as a woman.  She may have jeans on but they will be woman's jeans with woman's boots, a woman's top, makeup, wig, jewelry, woman's long wool coat and carrying a purse.  She will be going out later today, where that will be anyone's guess but she will go out.
She is sitting completely dressed as a woman including her makeup, perfume, wig and jewelry on wearing a red and black pull over dress with her 3-inch slip on heels.

11-14-14

This will mark another day that I will be dressing as a woman.  I still need to stop by the store and pick up feminine supplies, need to make up my mind on a manicure if I do then I need to shop for a sweater dress to wear out tomorrow evening.
I have some errands to run today and here I sit partially dressed as a woman with her makeup on.  My male self says she wasn't going to come out until we got back home.  She said no she was coming out because she was going dress shopping and looking to get her nails done.  He wouldn't have done either one, but she will.  We will see what happens.
Here is what happen today, she did get her way to a certain point.  She left here dressed as a woman she had nail polish on her toenails, a regular flow tampon in her love hole, she had sprayed perfume on all her body.  She had on a panties with a sanitary napkin in them, pantyhose with an all-in-one body brief, with a woman's pull over top, woman's jeans, foundation, face powder, eye shadow, eye liner, mascara on.  She also wore a wig with earrings  and heels on with a long wool coat carrying her purse.  She also carried out a Lane Bryant bag with a pair of ankle socks and his gym shoes along with a jacket.
First stop to pay a bill, in the parking lot she removed the heels and slip on the ankle socks and gym shoes, once out of the vehicle she slip off the wool coat and put on the jacket.  She also removed the wig, earrings and the breast inserts.
Once that bill was paid next stop was the bank to get some money, then off to Lane Bryant store she didn't go in he chickened out.
Next stop was Kroger's to get her feminine supplies total bill was $96.00 but he did get a couple of things the rest was for her.
Stopped at a park on the way back home and she removed the socks and gym shoes and slip the heels back on, then she changed coats, got back into the vehicle and place the wig back on brushed it out and put the earrings back on.  Next came some blush and lip gloss and drove back home.
She hasn't done anything like that for at the very least 1-1/2 years or more.  It felt wonderful and natural to be out like that.

11-13-14

I need a few groceries from the store, plus some feminine hygiene supplies.  So I took a shower using scented body wash and shaved my face.  I sprayed on perfume, don panties with a sanitary napkin, pantyhose, all-in-one body brief, slip on heels and a pull over woman's sweater.
As far as hygiene supplies go I need hair remover lotion, sanitary napkins, douche, mascara, foundation and eye liner pencil.  I also need some black cohost, iron pills and something for women going through menopause.  Yes, I like taking them helps me think of myself as a woman.
Plus I need a few grocery items as well.
I will probably wear woman's jeans when I go out and if I still had a short woman's coat I would have worn it also.  That's what I get for purging some items a few years ago.

11-12-14

I did dress Monday as a woman and it felt wonderful and right.  After having masturbating and shooting a full load of cum into my sanitary napkin.  I got to feeling guilty for dressing as a woman.  I removed my nail polish and strip everything off.
Didn't do anything yesterday as far as being feminine, but this morning I am having an overwhelming urge to apply nail polish on my toenails once again.  I know when I do it I will also take a shower using scented body wash and shaving my body, then I will be taking a feminine douche and inserting a tampon or two.  I will be back on my way to being a woman.  Just wish I had somebody to share this part of me with.
Here I sit completely dressed as a woman and what a feeling it is.
There are a few things that I should be doing today but here I am as the woman I long to be.  It feels so wonderful and right to be dressed as I am  including my makeup, perfume, wig and jewelry.
I have come to a conclusion this afternoon, I need to buy myself a cock cage put it on lock it and throw away the keys to it.  If I can deny myself from cumming I will be able to stay dressed as a woman longer and will be more likely to start going back out as one.

11-09-2014

I was having a hard time getting into my feminine self until I seen my hot looking female neighbor outside, then I was more then willing to get into my female self.
Got back inside from doing a chore outside when I seen my neighbor, strip applied nail polish to my toenails, then applied hair remover lotion all over my body, waited about ten minutes then rinsed it off.  Once out patted myself dry then applied scented body lotion, used a feminine douche and inserted a super plus tampon to help hold it in.  Once flushed out I then used my vibrating dildo on myself and sucked on a regular dildo.  Once that was over I reinserted a regular flow tampon, don panties with a sanitary napkin, pantyhose, slip on heels, black all-in-one body brief.  Now I am getting my makeup on and will spend the rest of the day as a woman.
On Monday I will once again become a woman and spend my day as one.

11-08-2014

Today I have been doing my male side and trying to get some things done around here before bad weather sets in.
Tomorrow I am planing on my female side to come out and to stay dressed as a woman all day.  I have my new dress to try on also have a new top to try on with some woman's jeans.
I need to look on line for women's dress slacks.  As much as I hate the idea of wearing slacks but feel I need a pair or two.  They remind me of being born a male.
Hopefully I can find a part-time employment somewhere that will lead into full-time employment.  Then I can start buying more woman's apparel and under garments.  I enjoy wearing Rago's all-in-ones and would like to invest in some more vibrating dildos and a hand vibrating wand.

11-05-14

On November 01,2014 I stayed dressed as a woman for most of the day and it felt wonderful.  Today being the fifth of November  the urge awaken once again and again I am completely dressed as a woman and it feels so right and natural to be dressed this way.
I enjoy wearing makeup and perfume and a course having women's under clothes on don't hurt either.  I also enjoy using feminine hygiene products such as feminine douche, tampons and sanitary napkins, which a course I used this morning and I still have a regular flow tampon inside of me along with a sanitary napkin in my panties.  I also have nail polish on my toenails.
What would really feel nice instead of the tampon would  be a vibrating butt plug or dildo inside of me.
After masturbating I strip everything off and went the grocery store for a few things.  Once back home I took another feminine douche and reinserted a super plus tampon to help hold the fluid in.   Once flushed out I then reinserted another regular flow tampon, sprayed some more perfume on and proceeded to once again get completely dressed as a woman.  This time I will wait until about 6:00pm then head out the door and get into my vehicle and leave here as a woman.  I will go for a ride as a woman and may find some place to walk around then come back home.

10-27-14

Haven't had the desire to get feminine but this afternoon I forced myself to get back into my feminine self.
I have used a new bottle of hair remover lotion all over my body, once out of the shower I use scented body lotion and have taken a douche with a super plus tampon inside of me.  Once I flush that out I will use my dildo on myself, then start getting dressed as a woman with the slight chance I can leave here this evening as a woman to snail mail some letters.  If for nothing else I will go to the grocery store under-dress as a woman.
I am now completely dressed as a woman and it feels fantastic, I have my look down  for when I get the chance to leave here as a woman.
I went ahead and ordered a new pull over top and a dress from Lane Bryant, hopefully it will come Friday and if it does I will go there under-dressed as a woman with some makeup on pick up my packages then ask to use a dressing room.  If allowed I will put on my dress, touch up my makeup and walk out of the store wearing my new dress.

10-24-14

For the last few days I have been somewhat wanting to get dressed as a woman but for the life of me can't seem to do it.
Finally figured it out I don't have any nail polish, that has been my stopping point.  That will change today, went to the grocery store for some feminine supplies last evening.  Wrong time to go as they were having Halloween for kids, place was packed but use it to buy feminine needs.  Now have nail polish, eye liner two different shades, mascara, hair dye, feminine douche and hair remover lotion.  Suppose to be in the seventies this weekend and into the eighties next week, which will put me back into the mood to become a woman.
Have one more important chore to get done outside with the weather being nice and hope to get it done this weekend then off to being a woman or at least dressing as one.

10-20-14

I have been out of nail polish and for some unknown reason I just get into being a sissy without some nail polish.
I may try again today to get into the mood and go grocery shopping under-dressed as a woman and purchase some needed feminine supplies.  Just in case I decide to go out at the end of October as a woman.
I do know I need to find some employment this winter and it would be nice to find it where I could work dressed as a woman.  In the real world that won't happen at least in the bible belt.
Took a shower using scented body wash, douched and had a super plus tampon inside of me.  I sprayed perfume on, don a bra with my silicone breasts inserts.  Have flushed myself out,  here in a few minutes I will be using my vibrating dildo on myself.  Then I will reinsert a regular flow tampon, don panties with a sanitary napkin in them, coffee color pantyhose, all-in-one body brief, jeans, pull over top.  Heels to start with, may apply some makeup, grab a purse and a change of shoes and head out the door to get some feminine supplies.
I do need to go shopping for some woman's shoes flats or casual shoes to go shopping in.

10-12-14

As my male self I gave in to some friends and join Pinterest, I thought it was all private until today when I realized it wasn't.  As my male self I had looked at some crossdressing sites and had followed them not knowing anybody could look at my page.  Guess I am out to some people that didn't know I was into crossdressing. 
Anyway I deactivated my account with them as my male self, my feminine self is still on there and speaking of feminine.  I am now on my way to be feminine from today to who knows when I will stop being feminine.  I am planning on using hair remover a couple times a week and feminine douche at least three times a week if not more.  Every time I douche I will wear at lest two tampons one super pus to help hold in the douche and a regular flow after flushing my system out and a sanitary napkin at all times in my panties.  From here on out I will wear only panties with a pad, keep nail polish on my toenails and may even get a manicure done this week. 
I will be using my vibrating dildo on myself a few times this week starting today.  I will also be getting under-dress as a woman with some makeup on as I need to go to the grocery store.
This week and for the next few weeks I will be dressing as a woman during the day and evening and will be going out as one as well.  Whenever I go out during the week I will always carry a purse and will have on woman's jeans and a woman's top or be wearing a dress with heels or a skirt, top and heels.

9-24-2014

Yesterday I have the urge to get feminine and I went all out, by the time I was done I was completely dressed as a woman including a dress, makeup, jewelry and a wig and it felt fantastic.
I am planning on doing it again this afternoon and I am hoping I can go out as a woman this evening to snail mail a couple of letters.

09-19-14

It took until today for me to get into my feminine mood and it has felt great so far.  The flushing out of my system by using a feminine douche does wonders for a person's soul.  The use of the vibrating dildo also done wonders for the soul.
I am sitting here with nail polish on my toenails, regular flow tampon in my love hole, perfume sprayed on, panties with a sanitary napkin in them, coffee color pantyhose, silicone breast glued on, black slip on heels, black all-in-one body brief and a swim suit cover up on.  It felt so wonderful and right that I was dressed in woman's lingerie.  I felt the need to masturbate and when I did I lost my need to be dressed as a woman.  I still have the nail polish on my toenails plus I kept the panties with sanitary napkin in them but everything else came off.
 I would like to go out as a woman next week sometime.

09-14-14

For the last couple of days have been really stressful around my home and I am thinking that this afternoon will be the time to relive that stress.
I will start by applying nail polish to my toenails, apply hair remover lotion let it set for five minutes at least, rinse it off in the shower, apply scented body lotion, use a feminine douche, insert a super plus tampon and hope to hold it in twenty to thirty minutes.  Once flushed out, lube my vibrating dildo and insert it into my love hole working it in and out until I can't stand it anymore.  I will then insert a regular flow tampon back into my love hole, spray myself with perfume and proceed to get dressed as a woman including makeup, jewelry and a wig.
I will also do the same thing for the next few days to week.  Hopefully one night or evening this week I can go out as a woman to snail mail some letters.

09-07-14

By the time I got everything just right, I broke out in a sweat.  I should have known not to apply foundation but I did anyway.  Laid down on the bed and stroke my shaft didn't take long to orgasm.
Strip everything off and washed my makeup off and got back into my male mood.
Today being Sunday having that urge again to be feminine, may have to apply nail polish to my toenails then get back into a feminine mood, which will happen sooner then later.  I have already sprayed glue on a couple of different sizes of silicone breast.  I hope to wear them all day on Monday with or without a bra.  May even wear a woman's swimsuit outside on Monday depending on the temperature.
I want to start wearing feminine items and/or going out completely as a woman in the next few weeks.  I still would like to find employment in a woman's specialty store even if only working in the back where as I could wear some feminine items to work in.

09-05-14

I woke up early this morning a lot earlier then I normally do.  Once up I realize that I forgot to to remove the tampon  that I had inside of me.
Part of me wants to go to a party this morning as a woman to experience being a sissy fagot, to learn to give a BJ and to take it in the rear.  In one sense I am afraid that I will like it and want more of it but then again I might also hate it.
I think the biggest fear is having people see me who I really am or seeing my double life turning into a single life and that is one of being a sissy fagot.
Although if I could get the money out of everything that I have brought in the last eleven years I would probably give it all up.  To be able to live as a woman somewhere and not to see any current friends and/or relatives.  To find all new friends that would only know me as a sissy fagot/woman.
I will be getting dressed as a woman this morning but I will be taking my time doing it, just in case I do decide to go to the party.  I want my appearance to be just right.

09-04-14

This evening I am hoping to become a woman once again and to enjoy myself as a woman on Friday as well.
It has been to long for me not to be feminine in some way.  I have been looking forward to this since late last week.  I could go out in the morning as a woman to a party and get the full experience as a woman or a sissy  to sucking a man and to have the experience of being taking anal by a man.  It has always been one of my fantasies but to make it a reality I just don't know.  I think I would rather be taken by a woman with a strap on first then go from there.
Just got out of the shower where as I just lost my body hair, have nail polish on my toenails and have taken a feminine douche with a super plus tampon to hold it in.
Once flushed out I went ahead and used my vibrating dildo on myself and it felt wonderful.  I then went ahead and got dressed in some lingerie and had perfume sprayed on.
I will be getting dressed as a woman in the morning and may go out as one for a drive. 

09-02-14

I finally got around to getting my feminine items this morning. Either this evening or tomorrow I will be using some of it to get back into a feminine mood.
Once back into my feminine mood I will be using my vibrating dildo on myself and then getting completely dressed as a woman including makeup, wig and woman's jewelry.  I am hoping I can go out somewhere as a woman even if it is only for a drive somewhere as a woman.  The worst thing would be to sit on my back porch as a woman.

08-28-14

I still haven't gotten my feminine needs but need to go after some gas this morning and while I'm out I will stop and get those items I need.
I do want to become a woman next week and to spend some time dressed as a woman even if it is only sitting on my back porch swing.

08-26-14

I haven't gotten dress as a woman for the last 14-days, I do need to go the store and buy some feminine hygiene items and some more makeup items.
I need feminine douche, super plus tampons, regular tampons, sanitary napkins.  Hair remover lotion, mascara, face powder, nail polish and eye liner.
I may go there later today and purchase those items if I don't use them this week, I will differently use them next week for sure.
I wouldn't mind be seeing by my hot looking neighbor when I am out as a woman or even shopping for my feminine items to become a woman.

08-12-14

I wasn't in the mood to go out last evening, today is a different day and I was in the mood to be feminine late this morning.  I have gotten completely dressed as a woman including makeup, and woman's jewelry.    Note to self next time don't apply creme foundation, just use face powder then full makeup.
I need to get my nails done, so that I can start going out as a woman.  I need to start going out in the day light as a woman not just in the evening and I need to start inter acting with people while I am out and about as a woman.
It wouldn't hurt to go shopping as a woman but it would be more fun to have another woman to shop with.

08-10-14-B

I started to have second thought about losing what body that has grown back and getting into my feminine mood.  I shouldn't had to worry as my feminine inner self took over and her I sit with nail polish on my toenails, body hair washed down the drain, feminine douche taken, dildo inserted, tampon in my love hole with perfume sprayed on.  Breast glued on panties with coffee color pantyhose, black slip on heels and a swim suit cover up on.
Once I come back in from feeding my animals outside I will don some makeup and a dress.

08-09-14

Still having those urges and I haven't gotten to the point of becoming feminine.  There were a couple of things that happen the first of the week that prevented me from doing it.  With the threat of rain this weekend I am looking at Sunday being the day I lose the body hair and to be able to start dressing as a woman in the coming week.
Hopefully I will be able to go out one evening next week as a woman, I'll find something to snail mail at a local post office, just so I can walk in there as a woman.

08-10-14

I have an errand to make today and when I get back I will spend the rest of the day getting into my feminine mood.  I'll start by applying nail polish to my toenails, then use my hair remover lotion all over my body, wait about ten minutes then rinsed it off.  I will then use some scented body lotion, lube up the nozzle on my feminine douche and insert it into my love hole, then insert a super plus tampon to help hold it in.  After about thirty minutes allow myself to flushed it out, then get my vibrating dildo and insert it into my love hole, after losing some cum scoop it up and put in my mouth.  Then spray perfume all over my body, insert another tampon back into my love hole, don panties with a sanitary napkin, spray some glue on a pair of silicone breast, don a bra and insert my breast into it.  Put on a pair of pantyhose, slip on heels, remove my bra and don an all-in-one body brief. Then start to apply my makeup, select a dress, earrings, woman's rings and a woman's watch then onto what color wig I want, may even glued it on.  Transfer my id's and money to a woman's billfold, decide what purse I want.
This will be my dress rehearsal for Monday evening, should I be able to go out and about for a bit.

08-07-14

For the last few days I have been having an over whelming urge to become feminine, to lose what little body hair I have to use a feminine douche and to insert a super plus tampon into my love hole.  To apply scented body lotion all over my body, to flushed my system out and to use my vibrating dildo on myself.  Then to spray perfume all over my body, insert another tampon into my love hole, don panties with a sanitary napkin, pantyhose, slip on heels, bra and to glue on a pair of silicone breast.  Apply makeup, remove my bra and to don my all-in-one body brief, select a dress, earrings, woman's rings, woman's watch then to select on of my wigs.  Then to transfer my id's and money to a woman's billfold and to load up one of my purses.  I would then leave here and go for a drive or to a club for gays and lesbians.

07-15-14-B

Did some chores outside as my male self but kept thinking about getting back into my feminine self.  I do need to go out today and pay a bill and pick up a couple of things that I forgot last evening but it will have be mostly male attire on the outside and feminine under things.
I do need to do some housework and I do it better when I am dressed as a woman.
I did get dressed completely as a woman including full makeup, earrings, dress, perfume and heels and it felt wonderful hope to do it again soon.
I have made a couple of orders from Lane Bryant, One Hane's Place and two wigs from Paula Young.  I think my subconscious knows something that my conscious doesn't know.  That maybe in the weeks and months to come I will be going out as a woman.

07-15-2014

I gave a teenager something to talk about to her mother and I'm sure to her friends last evening.  Went to the grocery store yesterday evening underdressed as a woman with some light makeup on and purchase face powder, eye liner, eye shadow and mascara.  There was a teenager watching from the aisle behind me.  I then went in the aisle that she was in and picked up two boxes of feminine douche.
I'm sure if she look at the bottom of my jeans she could tell I was wearing nylons.

07-14-2014

I had made my mind up if the man across the road was out for an overnight delivery I was going to leave my home completely dressed as a woman this evening.  Since he is home I will just go out underdressed as a woman to buy some more feminine hygiene items; such as douche, tampons, sanitary napkins and hair remover lotion.  May also buy some new mascara and eye liner.
Since I will be out might as do some grocery shopping. 
Later this week I do need to find employment somewhere since I have ordered some woman's slacks and a new dress.  I would like to order a few more feminine items.  I probably should start shopping locally again as I did a few years ago when I went to Lane Bryant and tried on a blouse and a skirt before buying them.  I would like to do that again only this time where it out of the store.

07-13-2014

To hot outside to do anything so I came inside and got into my feminine self.  I used the rest of the hair remover lotion that I had, used the last feminine douche that I had.  I also now have nail polish on my toenails, I also used my vibrating dildo in my love hole and shot cum on my leg which I scoop up and ate.
I then sprayed myself with perfume, and inserted a regular flow tampon back into my love hole, donned panties with a sanitary napkin in them, coffee color pantyhose was next with my black slip on heels.  Sprayed some glue on a pair of silicone breasts and don a bra then inserted the silicone breast in my bra, then donned a control panty girdle.  Sat at my computer for a while then don a load of clothes and changed into a all-in-one body brief and applied some lip gloss and sat around for the next few hours.
Once it cool down outside I strip myself of all clothes except for my panties and put on some male clothes and went back outside to do some chores.

07-12-2014

Here it is Saturday morning and I am having an overwhelming urge to wear a bra and to keep it on all day.  I am also thinking of putting nail polish on my toenails. 
Is the moon doing this?  Since it closest to the earth this time of the year?  I like it if it is doing it, it could stay around for a month or more.
If not then I am just going through one of my moods or having PMS.  Thinking today or tomorrow I will be using my hair remover lotion again, douching and inserting a tampon.  Getting under-dressed as a woman with some light makeup and perfume on to go grocery shopping.  I may go ahead and fill out an application on line for work at a couple of woman's specialty stores.  What do I have to lose, the stores already know I shop there.  Other then my references will find out about me.
I went ahead and donned a bra and panties this morning but had an overwhelming urge to masturbate which I did but now the urge is back this afternoon to get feminine.  I wish I could over come my silliness about feeling ashamed of myself after I masturbate while I am dressed in lingerie.

07-10-2014

Seen my hot looking neighbor this morning after doing some chores outside I now have taking a shower using scented body wash and have taken a douche with a super plus tampon inside of me.
I was browsing on the Lane Bryant web-site and ordered two pairs of woman's  slacks and one dress that zips up the side. 
I just got through using my vibrating dildo again and it felt wonderful, I now have a regular flow tampon inside of me and have don panties with a sanitary napkin in them.  I have also sprayed myself with perfume and have sprayed some glue on a pair of silicone breast of which once I donned a bra I slip the breast into the cups of the bra.  I am hoping they stayed glued on.  If they do stay glued on I will then put on my woman's swim suit and go outside.  If not I will finish getting underdressed as a woman and go to the bank, lumber yard and smoke shop.
I tried on both swim suits that I have and I didn't like how I looked in either one.

07-08-2014

I was doing good until I got on my feminine face book account and clicked on a pantyhose site.  Now here I am hairless have taken a douche with a super plus tampon inside of me, scented body lotion on with the prospect of using my vibrating dildo on myself.  Inserting another tampon inside of me, spraying myself with perfume, donning panties with a sanitary napkin in them, pantyhose, woman's jeans, maybe a bra with a pull over top or just the pull over top, woman's billfold, light makeup with some lip gloss, woman's slip on flat shoes or my heels.
I do need to go to the grocery store, wonder if I could pull it off and go there as a woman.  I would need to wear a wig and glue it on. I would also want to wear a dress with heels or a skirt and a pull over top or blouse.  I would also need to have my nails done.  Might be better idea to wait until this fall then go there as a woman.
I will be dressing as one in the weeks to come.  I am hoping to lie out in the sun as a woman also.
It took three pairs of pantyhose before I could get one on without a run in them, this has only happened one other time several years ago.  Might be time to buy some more pantyhose.

06-12-14

I haven't been able to get dressed as a woman and to go out like I had wanted to this week.  I did get the chance to remove my body hair on Sunday, applied nail polish to my toenails, douched and inserted a tampon.  I also got underdressed a woman with makeup and perfume on but after masturbating most that went away.  I did manage to wear panties with a sanitary napkin in them for a couple of days and I will go back to wearing them next week.  Hopefully I will be able to get dressed as a woman next week and go somewhere even if it is only for a drive somewhere.
Still have that fantasy of working somewhere as a woman, to leave here dressed as a woman and to be able to work at a store as a woman and to come back home as a woman.  Guess that won't go away for anytime soon.

05/30/14

One more chore to do outside and I will do that one in the early morning then I can become the woman that I long to be.   When I do start on my way to becoming a woman in the next few days I am in need of using my vibrating dildo on myself and may suck on another life like dildo that I have.  Man this week would have been the one to be a woman as the couple that lives across the road from me has been gone all week.  About the time they get back home the hot looking neighbor and her husband will be headed to the lake.  At the very least I will be able to walk around or sun bath in my woman's one piece swim suit.

05-29-2014

It would have been a good week to do some feminine things but that hasn't happen.  My male side had to do some male chores outside and he still isn't done doing them.  Needless to say he wore himself out yesterday went to bed hurting and got up this morning still hurting.  He isn't used to doing manual labor, which is probably why she isn't around this week.
I am hoping by Sunday I will have nail polish on my toenails and will be going out as the woman I long to be.

05/26/14

Weekend as a male is over, now to be a woman this week.  I have an another order in at the local Lane Bryant store and a pair of slacks to send back.
I am thinking this week I will apply nail polish to toenails and may buy some naturally feminine hormone supplements pills for hot flashes.
I really need to get back into my feminine mode and probably need to buy more hair remover lotion, douche and tampons.
I also need to find employment in the near future, still would like to work in a woman's store even if I could be at the very least underdressed as a woman but would be willing to work there as a woman or dressed as a woman.

05-15-2014

I had decide that when I went after my order at the local Lane Bryant store I would be underdressed as a woman.
Right now I am completely dressed as a woman and it feels so wonderful and right, if my hair and fingernails were longer I wouldn't hesitate to go out the way I am right now.
I do need to work on a tan or find somewhere to have a tan sprayed on.
Went out last evening to get my ordered from the local Lane Bryant store, underdressed as a woman and even wore  women's pull over top with women's jeans and I had on makeup and perfume.  I do believe I could have worn woman's shoes,  jewelry and have been carrying a purse and nothing would have been said.
In the near future I will be trying that, once I have a manicure and my ear pierced.
I need to start dressing more as a woman and to start going out as a woman, I have way to many woman's clothes to just wear around in my home.

05-13-2014

Just received an email stating that my order from Lane Bryant is in a the local store.  I will be going out in the morning underdressed as a woman with some makeup and perfume on to pick it up.  I also want to stop at the PayLess shoe store and look at woman's shoes flats and something to wear outside when I have on my woman's swimsuit.
I have an order from Macy's coming tomorrow also, I had placed an order for some panties. 
I have also placed an order for some dresses from Jessica London, should be here next week I guess.  Looks like I will be dressing more as a woman in the coming weeks and months.
By late fall I do want to go out and do some grocery shopping and window shopping as a woman.  I also want to start going out to a support group and to a club or two dressed as a woman.

05-11-2014

I haven't been dressing as a woman as much as I wish I have been.  I do keep my body hair free and I do have a problem playing with my nipples and breasts.
Last night I go to looking at some women's attire on the Lane Bryant's web-site, found two dresses, a blouse and some woman's slacks that my feminine self liked.  She went ahead and ordered them to be sent to the local store.  My feminine self has told my male self that it will be her that will pick them up, actually it will be the combination of both of them that will be picking it up, he may be under-dressed as a woman but she will also have some makeup and perfume on.
More then likely when s/he picks the order up, s/he can go to the payless store and get a couple pairs of woman's shoes.
I just got through ordering some new panties from Macy's.
Now I am in the mood to get feminine but need some lubricant to use feminine douche, tampons and to use my dildo of which I don't have at the moment.
I had thought the neighbor was leaving as I would like to walk around in my woman's swimsuit for my hot neighbor to see me in but that didn't happen either.  I may go out and get some lubricant so that I can douche and use my vibrating dildo on myself.

05-05-2014

I couldn't stand it anymore I had to become a woman today, I do need a few things from the store of which when I leave I will more likely be underdressed as a woman.  For now I have used hair remover lotion, showered applied scented body lotion, used a feminine douche and have inserted a super plus tampon to help hold it in.  Once flushed out I then headed to the bedroom to use my vibrating dildo and it felt wonderful.  I then inserted a regular flow tampon, sprayed myself with perfume then don panties with a sanitary napkin, coffee color pantyhose, slip on my heels, my all-in-one black body brief, woman's robe and started to apply makeup.  I then went and slip in my silicone breasts into my bra.
I really do need to go Wally world but need to do it in male mode, the makeup I have on should be fine as long as I keep my sunglasses on.  Now this evening I may apply more to the eyes plus apply lip gloss and blush.  I will also put on earrings and rings on my fingers this evening.
I am hoping that I can go out for a drive to a post office to snail mail some bills.

05-01-2014

I haven't been in the mood to cross-dress but that has changed earlier this week.  I got to looking at some woman's tops and the urge came back luckily I had some hair remover feminine  douche on hand.  I am now hairless and have nail polish on my toenails.  I have about an hour worth of chores left to do outside.  I will then come back in take a shower using some scented body wash, apply scented body lotion then douche and insert a super plus tampon to help hold it in.  Once flushed out I will use my vibrating dildo after about 30-minutes I will take it out and insert a regular flow tampon into my love hole.  Then spray perfume on my body and get dressed as a woman including makeup, jewelry and a wig.  I still have some house work to do and I will do it as a woman.
If I didn't have to pick up a trailer this evening I think I would have went out for a drive as a woman.  There is always next week to think about.

04-07-2014

I have been dragging my feet so to speak, I finally got around to take a shower using scented body wash, once out and patted myself dry.  I then used a feminine douche on myself with a super plus tampon to help hold it in my love hole.  Once flushed out I then reinserted a well lubricated regular flow tampon, sprayed myself with perfume and donned panties with a sanitary napkin in them. Coffee color pantyhose, black slip on heels, all-in-one body brief, woman's pull over top and woman's jeans.  I then took a light robe and put it over my top and applied my makeup, hopefully I'll make it out of the house before I masturbate.  It all feels so good and wonderful.  I just wish twenty plus years ago I would have had breast argumentation done and would have lived as a woman after my divorced.

04-06-2014

I received my outfit on Tuesday this past week, tried it all on I didn't like how it looked on me so I sent it all back.
Since about Wednesday I have been thinking of dressing as a woman this week.  Last week it was spring break around here not that I have any kids to worry about but I do know several bus drivers that could have pop right in.
So this week they will all be back in school plus a friend of mine has found temporary work so I don't have to worry about this friend popping in either.
I really wasn't in the mood to get into being feminine today but I forced myself to do it.  Once I started doing it I am glad I did do it.  Here shortly I will be using my vibrating dildo, one of these days I want to leave it in there until the batteries wear down.  It feels so wonderful when I have it in my love hole.
Tomorrow I have something's or errands to do and I will be underdressed as a woman when I do them.  Hopefully I can go out as a woman one evening this week to snail mail some letters.  I may wait to see if I can go out as a woman on Monday evening before doing my errands.

3-31-2014

I was hoping the new outfit would have shown up today as this evening would have been a good time to wear it out for a drive and to the post office to snail mail some letters.
I only like to go out in the evenings when the man across the road isn't home and tonight he isn't there.
I had prep my silicone breast to be glued on and hand washed my dildo's to use on myself this afternoon but no packages.  I stayed dressed as a male all day but really would have liked to have been a woman wearing a new outfit.
There is a local woman's specialty store part of a national chain that is looking for sales associates and I have been thinking of applying for a position.  I wonder what they would say can't very denied the job other then saying I'm not qualify as I have a charge account with them and buy from there and have told one or two that the clothes are for me.
Might have to think on it some more before I apply.  I would wear what ever they wanted me to wear.

03-30-2014

I was hoping the new outfit I had ordered would have come yesterday as I was hoping to try everything on today being Sunday.
I will go ahead and use the hair remover lotion I have and take a douche with the inserting of tampons and will be getting back into my feminine mode.  I may also use my vibrating dildo on myself today if not I will deferent use it this week.
While I am in my feminine mode I may go ahead and apply for a sales associate position at a woman's specialty store.
Tomorrow if my outfit arrives I will try it on and see how I look in it before deciding if I want to keep it or not.
More than likely I will keep it, I used to buy them every year when I lived in the house in the subdivision and would walk around in the backyard for one of my next door neighbors to see me.

0-26-2014

I just got through ordering a new Easter outfit, probably won't wear it out to Easter service but if I would go to one this would be what I would wear.
I hope by later this year that I will start going out as a woman.  I had tried to log on to a woman's specialty store to apply for a sale associate at one of their stores.  If hired I would be willing to wear some of their products, ok all of their products.  I would dress as a woman if that is what it would  take to work there.  It would be hard for me to wear slacks as I much prefer dresses with heels and skirts with tops and heels.  But I would wear whatever they wanted me to.

3-23-2014

I was in full male mode this afternoon while grocery shopping at the check out which I wish I didn't go through but at times a person has to do it.  I usually go through self service check outs.
I was putting everything on the belt when the cashier asks if I was going to dye my hair as I had picked up a box of woman's hair dye told yes that I was going to cover my gray hair.  I thought for a minute to think if I had pick anything else feminine up.
I think the next time I am in there buying my makeup or feminine products I will see if that cashier is in there and go through her lane and wait for the comments then calmly as possible tell her that the products I have are for myself.

3-20-2014

Since it is the first day of spring I may take the time to strip and use my hair remover lotion, douche and insert my vibrating dildo into my male sissy hole.
Then finished getting completely dressed as a woman including makeup and jewelry and go out for a drive.

03-09-2014-B

I do believe I will be dressing as a woman this week, seen my hot neighbor even thought she had jeans and a coat on you could tell she is hot looking.
I have some chores that need done outside with it being nice warm weather this week once they are done I will then be dress as a woman with makeup and jewelry on.
That is one thing if I am going to become a woman for the day I have to go all out or nothing at all.

03-09-2014

I was trying to figure out what to give up for lent about the only thing I could think of was cross-dressing.  I don't know if I will be able to or not, I haven't made it a week and the temptation is already getting to me.
The weather this week is suppose to be warm and inviting to dress as a woman and to go out for a drive to snail mail some letters.  Plus I got my new all-in-one body brief this past week and I would really like to try it on.  I wouldn't be able to just try it on I would have to go all out and dress completely as a woman.  Of course in doing so I would have to start with hair remover lotion, then douche and insert a super plus tampon once flushed out I would want to use my vibrating dildo.  After thirty minutes or so then I would be inserting another super plus tampon spraying myself with perfume then I would be ready for my panties with a sanitary napkin, pantyhose, all-in-one body brief, high heels, robe and then I would start applying my makeup once my makeup was done then select a dress double check my makeup, earrings, woman's watch and rings.  Load my purse up and walk out the door for a drive to the post office to snail mail my letters.
Just don't know if I can give it up or not, time will tell.

3-3-2014

She is back, she took a shower using her scented wash lotion, patted herself dry, used a douche and inserted a super plus tampon into her love canal.  She then went ahead and applied her makeup and use her underarm deodorant.  She is now waiting to flush herself out then she can reinsert a regular flow tampon, spray herself with perfume and finish getting dressed as the woman she is. 

I do believe she is here to stay for a while, it is suppose to start getting warmer by Wednesday and I look for her to start using her bedroom toys on herself once again.

3-01-2014

I was going to do something else this morning but it got cancelled.  Done a couple of things outside that I have been putting off came back inside around noon.  Strip applied hair remover, showered wipe myself down with baby oil then took a douche and inserted a super plus tampon to help hold it in.  I went ahead and applied foundation and will here soon be dusting myself with face powder, once flushed out I will be using my vibrating dildo after about thirty minutes I will reinsert a regular tampon and finish applying my makeup then finish dressing as a woman.  I am hoping to stay that way most of the day.  I may change into woman's jeans and a woman's top and go to the grocery store, once back home it will be a dress again unless I take one with me and find a place to change.  Then I will coming back home as a woman.

2-28-2014

I had some errands to run today in doing them I had a pair of panties on with a sanitary napkin in them with some perfume sprayed on.
I should have stayed home and gotten completely dressed as a woman.
Hopefully in the next few days that will happen, In feel I need to do it.
I still haven't decided what I am going to do to earn some extra money this year.   I would like to get employment somewhere where I could work under-dressed as a woman or completely dressed as a woman.
To be able to leave my home dressed as a woman, work as a woman and to come back home as a woman it would give the neighbors a lot to talk about as if they don't talk about me the way it is now.
I enjoy my time when I am dressed as a woman and one or two of the neighbors that have seen me as a woman have never said anything but I wish one of them would stop and say something.
I am hoping that I can sun bath or at least work in my garden this year wearing a woman's swimsuit.

2-26-2014

A bit late in the day on Tuesday afternoon but I did  use my hair remover,  took a douche and inserted a super plus tampon into my love canal.
I didn't get dressed as a woman on Tuesday but I do need a few items from the store today and it being cold out once again I will be going there under-dressed as a woman, may just wear all feminine outer-wear along with my woman's wool coat.  The only problem is shoes only have heels or boots with heels.
Maybe I just need to go shoe shopping as a woman.
I do think I will be joining a fitness center as a male but will work on losing weight as a woman.  That way I can wear smaller dress sizes as the woman I long to be.

2-24-2014

Hopefully by Tuesday afternoon I can once again become a woman.  Right now I am in the process of repairing some steps I accidently took out on Sunday.  They were in need of repair so it wasn't a total loss that I took them out with a piece of farm machinery.
I came close to using some hair remover today before going after some more lumber but didn't.  This way I can enjoy becoming a woman and enjoy my day as a woman come Tuesday afternoon and with some luck the rest of the week as a woman. 
I would really like to go as a woman if for nothing else to go for a drive as one and maybe mail something as a woman.

02-23-2014

I wish for one of these;

2-23-2014

The weather is suppose to be cooler on Sunday, so that may be the day I can lose what body hair that has grown back.  Take a douche and work on becoming a woman for a week or so.  I do have some new items I would like to try on and if possible wear some things out and about.
My nipples are getting hard just thinking about becoming a woman.
I have been checking some fitness centers out and have come to the conclusion I will need to buy some excising clothes.  I wonder if they have  unisex clothes for excising.

2-19-2014

I had wanted to dress as a woman yesterday and the rest of the week but do to some circumstances that won't be happening.
Since the weather has gotten warmer is wanting to come out and work with one of her animals and she told me yesterday that she would like to stay the week if that is the case I will have to take everything off hangers and put into storage containers.
Just shooting my idea's down and very well can't say no unless I change the locks on the house as she has a spare key.

02-17-2014

For the last few days I have changed my eating habits, hopefully I will be able to continue.
I have just gotten through ordering some more woman's tops and a pair of woman's slacks.  Tomorrow I am having my taxes done how I wish I could go there completely dressed as a woman, might go there under-dressed as a woman without makeup or perfume on.  I could always take my makeup and perfume once out of the tax office find somewhere to apply my makeup and spray perfume on.  Might as well take a dress, heels, purse and jewelry then I could always come back as the woman I was meant to be.
Might as well give the woman across the road something to talk about.

2-16-2014

I am having an overwhelming urge to get into my feminine mood today.  I need some business envelopes that I have been wanting to buy for the last three weeks but haven't as of yet.
I do have a couple of things that I need to do today as my male self but that urge is there and she usually gets her way.  If she can wait until tomorrow I will promise her I will stay as a woman all day and will use the vibrating dildo on her as she has fell in love with it.
She will more then likely will want to go for a drive should it warm up but she really needs to get her nails done, then she can go anywhere her heart desires.
I do know she wants to go to a club with the possibility of picking up somebody or having somebody pick her up and making her behave like the woman she wants to be.
One errand done now to get the other one done and I can become a woman for the week. 
I have a couple of new dresses to try on along with some tops to go with jeans, I may have to look into ordering a pair or two of woman's slacks with some woman's shorts for this year.

2-15-2014

I had to go a clinic the other day it seems I have  bad sinus infection, while in there I had to step on a scale and I knew I had gain weight but didn't realize how much until that day.
Needless to say I need to change my eating habits and find a gym to go to, not only for my male self but it will help in my feminine self also.
I need to restock in some vegetables and fruit today and when I go to the grocery store I will be going there under-dressed as a woman and hope to find a gym to work on their exercising equipment.  If I can find someplace I will also be going there under-dressed as a woman, may look into purchasing some women's exercising clothes. 

2-11-2014

My panties finally came in the mail yesterday, this morning I put a pair of my new panties on, bra with silicone breast inserts, woman's jeans and a woman's top.  I am planning on wearing this outfit all day.
Laying in bed this morning watching the news they had showed where the temperature is suppose to be in the fifties on Monday of next week.  I will be able to put the dog outside for a while take my time using hair remover all over my body, douche, tampon and using my vibrating dildo on myself.  Tomorrow I will need some fruit from the store I will be going there under-dressed as a woman with my woman's jeans and a pull over top on.  I will also use some makeup and perfume.  I just won't be wearing my silicone breast, woman's jewelry,  woman's shoes or woman's coat with a purse. 
With the coat I was wearing I believe I could have kept my silicone breast inserts in my all-in-one and nobody would have know the difference.  I do want to go in there sometime dressed completely as a woman to do my shopping.

2/8/2014

I never made it to dressing as a woman yesterday but today according to FED-EX I should be getting some packages today.
Looks like I will be wearing some feminine attire when I go to the store today, a course I will also be under-dressed as a woman might even wear some makeup and perfume just not my silicone breast, purse, woman's coat and woman's shoes/boots.
My nipples are getting hard just thinking about it.

2-7-2014

Another snow storm is to come in late this evening, I need to do a few things outside first then I can spend the afternoon getting ready to be a woman.
I got to thinking this morning laying in bed I need to shop for a satin night grown and matching robe alone with some woman's slippers.
I need to work on losing some weight in the spring I will probably look into purchasing a bicycle to ride.  Then I can buy one of those woman's bicycling spandex outfits and a helmet to ride in to ride in.

2/6/2014

I had wanted to get into my feminine mood today but I have to go to another funeral home to see an friend laid to rest.
Hopefully I can become a sissy woman on Friday through the weekend.  I will use my hair remover again on Friday, douche and insert a tampon or two then apply scented body lotion all over my body and get dressed as a woman including makeup, jewelry and perfume.
I do hope the weather changes soon as I keep shopping on the internet for feminine clothes.  I really need to shop locally for them that way everybody can see what a sissy I am.  I can always go shopping for more woman's shoes and a purse or two.  I do need a pair of woman's deck/pool shoes and a over size bag to carry my sun bathing accessories.
I do want to go and get a pedicure and a manicure done.  Once my hair gets longer hopefully by the fall I want to get my ears pierced also.

2-5-2014

I had planned on dressing as  a woman today, that was until I woke up this morning and found out that the electric was out. 
I had to get the generator out along with a kerosene and propane heater going to keep my water pipes from freezing.
Hopefully later this week I can dress as a woman, I would really like to find the nerve to get a manicure done and to start going out as a woman.
I was thinking this morning while I was laying in bed that I need to get some butt plugs in different sizes and to start using them, in case I ever go out as a woman and find somebody that wants to give me something.

2-03-2014

Yesterday I kept shopping on the internet went back to the Roman's site and ordered a swimsuit and a straw hat.  I keep saying or telling myself that I will lay out in the sun in a woman's swimsuit, hopefully my hot neighbor will see me wearing the woman's swimsuit.
I also ordered some panties from the Hanes outlet site.
Should it ever quit snowing and raining I would like to start going out dressed as a woman,  I used to do that a few years ago.  I can still hear the door slamming shut from the woman across the road when she saw me in a woman's top, leather skirt, makeup and heels.
That year I used to go shopping at the mall under-dressed as a woman wearing some makeup and perfume in drab attire.  I wasn't afraid to tell the sales associate that the clothes I was shopping for were for me and I was allowed to try them on before buying them.
The house that I lived in before buying this one was in a subdivision and I used to buy Easter outfits that I would wear in my fenced (private) in backyard.  There was one or two neighbors that could see me walking around my yard in my Easter outfit, at the time I didn't care but it felt so nice to have an Easter outfit.
I wouldn't mind buying one again but should I do I would want to wear it somewhere other then my backyard.
I often think about going to a church wearing an Easter outfit on Easter Sunday.

2-01-2014-B

Spent more then I wanted to at the grocery store but did get my feminine items and yes once the groceries were put up I used my hair remover lotion and feminine douche.  Once the hair was washed down the drain and the douche flushed, I inserted my vibrating dildo and it felt wonderful.  I kept it in my love hole for about thirty minutes, then inserted a regular flow tampon and finished getting dressed as a woman with makeup and earrings on.  I also glued on my largest silicone breast and they feel wonderful also.

2-01-2014

In doing my errands yesterday I still didn't make it to the grocery store.  I'll be headed that way here shortly, by the way I will be under-dressed as a woman but without makeup on.
Right now I have my last feminine douche and a super plus tampon inside of me,  I will be buying two boxes of feminine douche, two bottles of hair remover, foundation, eye liner and makeup sponges.  I will also buy a few grocery items.
Once I get back home I will use the hair remover and another douche as I want to use my vibrating dildo on myself.  I will then get dressed as a woman and do some house cleaning and I will have glued on a pair of silicone breast.
I have ordered some tops and a pair of woman's jeans from Roman's, hopefully I will be dressed as a woman when it arrives.  I am hoping to stay dressed as a woman for the month or more and hope my hot neighbor can see me as a woman out working in her garden this year.  I hope to sun bath as a woman this year also.

01-30-14

It is suppose to be in the mid thirties today and warmer up for the weekend.  This cross-dresser needs to get her act together and start working to better herself toward being more feminine.  I have a few errands to run on Friday and either by Friday evening or on Saturday morning I will be getting ready to become a woman for the weekend.
If I could ever win the Power Ball or Mega Millions I would like to live the rest of my life as a woman with something extra between her legs.  I would want to have breast argumentation to increase my own breast size and to take some male hormone blockers.  Then I would move somewhere warmer in the winter time and live the rest of my life as the woman I believe I am at times.

01-27-14

A female friend of mine her mother had passed away this past Saturday and I agreed to be a pallbearer, so now I need to go out and purchase some white tee shirts to wear under a dress shirt that I still have.
You know where this is going as I can't go anywhere unless I have something feminine on to go shopping.  So I will be taking a shower using scented body wash, scented body lotion, douche and insert a tampon then spray on perfume and get under-dressed as a woman.  If I can get my butt in gear I can applied some makeup when I head out along with woman's billfold and woman's black wool coat.
Still haven't gone but am sitting here wishing I would have lived my life after divorced some twenty-something years ago as a woman instead of the make believe male that I am living as.  If I can ever get ahead I would like to take a trip somewhere warmer to check out the living arrangements and live there as a woman to my end of days.

01-24-2014

There are some things I need/want from the store, here shortly I will be working toward being a under-dressed as a woman with some makeup and perfume on.
Just gotten out of the shower where I used scented body wash and have taken a feminine douche with a super plus tampon inside of me.
I did get dressed as a woman with makeup and perfume on but didn't make it out of the house.  I managed to masturbate and that was the end of dressing as a woman.  About the only thing I kept on was the nail polish on my toenails.  I didn't even buy the hair remover or douche that I wanted.

01/22/14/B

I couldn't stand it any longer I kept thinking about douching and I finally gave in, not before applying nail polish to my toenails, and taking a shower using scented body wash.  Once out of the shower and patted myself dry then I used a feminine douche and inserted a super plus tampon to help hold it in.  Once flushed out I then sprayed myself with perfume and don panties with a sanitary napkin in them, black pantyhose, three inch slip on heels, control brief, bra with silicone inserts and a pull over dress.  It all feels so natural and right.
For sure the rest of the week will be just like what I done this afternoon, if not the rest of the month.  The next time I go grocery shopping I will be going there under-dressed as a woman and will purchase some hair remover lotion along with some more douche.

01-22-2014

I have been home sick since Friday the seventeenth of January, I left work an hour early I had miss read the clock when I signed out. 
The young engineer left a voice mail on my cell phone and left a message on face-book  that made me mad.
Needless to say told him I was sick and that I would drop by the office and change my time, then he started back peddling.  By then I was really mad, typed a letter telling him my health was more important to me then that employment was.
So now I have more time to devote to my cross-dressing, still need to find part-time employment.  I would love to find employment in a woman's specialty store/department as long as I could work there as a woman.

01-12-2014

I have been wanting to get back into my feminine mode but have kept delaying it until this morning when I forced myself to do it.
I took a shower using scented body wash, patted myself dry then applied scented body lotion all over my body, douched and inserted a well lubricated super plus tampon.  Once flushed out thirty minutes later, I reinserted another well lubricated regular flow tampon, sprayed myself with perfume, don panties with a sanitary napkin, black pantyhose and a black all-in-one.  I went ahead and applied makeup, donned a dress put on a wig and earrings.  I got my black wool coat out and put it on then decided that I also needed to find a necklace to put on, loaded my purse up and thought of walking out the door to go for a drive but didn't.
I have a three day weekend coming up and I am serious thinking of going out somewhere either out for diner or out to a club under-dressed as a woman.  I may even go out to a club as a woman if I can find the nerve to have a manicure done.

01-08-2014

I am thinking Friday afternoon toward early evening I will be going to the Lane Bryant store to pick up my order.  Thursday afternoon when I get home from work I will use the hair remover lotion I have and apply nail polish to my toenails.  May take a douche also, that way when I get home Friday afternoon I can take a shower using scented body wash and apply scented body lotion as well.  I will also use feminine douche and insert tampons on Friday as well.  I should be out of here within the hour on Friday.  When I head to the Lane Bryant store I will be under-dressed as a woman wearing woman's jeans and a sweat shirt under my long wool woman's coat.

01-07-2014

With warmer weather coming the next few days high in the thirties compare to the single digits we have now.  I will be getting dressed as a woman when I get home from work and may venture out to pick up my order from the Lane Bryant store.
I will be under-dressed as a woman with some makeup,  perfume on and I will be wearing a woman's watch.  I will also wear a long woman's wool coat and carry a woman's billfold in the coat.

01-05-2014

On Friday I was notified that my order is in at the Lane Bryant store.  Yesterday I had something to do that was in the opposite direction then the lane Bryant store is in.  I had thought I would be there when the store open this afternoon.  I didn't start getting into my feminine mood until 11:30am when I took my douche and inserted a super plus tampon to help hold it in. 
After sitting here with the douche and tampon in my love hole I really didn't feel like going out with the cold that we are having in this area.  I should have went out but didn't, hopefully by later this week when the temperature starts rising I will fell like going out and getting my three items.  The next time I order something I will have it sent to my home.
Although it is humiliating at times to walk into a woman's specialty store to pick up something that I have ordered.  Plus I usually walk in there under-dressed as a woman.  When I started to go to the local Lane Bryant store it used to be in a mall.  The first time I walked in there and started to look around a sales woman asked if I needed some help told her what I was looking for and she asked if I knew her size, told her it was for me that I enjoy wearing  woman's clothes.  I picked a couple of skirts and tops and used the dressing room to try on the clothes.  As the sales person walked past I seen her look and she seen my nylon cover hairless legs with nail polish on my toenails.  I brought a skirt and blouse that day and open a charge account.